The Silent Killer Taking Down Our Veterans | Sir Toshi

Heat. [music] Heat. [music] >> [music] >> Sat Toshi, how are we doing? >> I'm all right, Chris. Thanks having me back on again. >> No problem, brother. Um, it's an absolute pleasure. Um, excuse me. I'm just going to hit the record on the on the Zoom. So, >> recording in progress. >> We have a backup if necessary. Um, yes. So, Satoshi, before we've been talking about Bitcoin, the Bitcoin scam, how it originated, how what people think now is Bitcoin is not what it actually is and all [snorts] the kind of uh control mechanisms therein. But last time we talked, I know you you started to talk about mental health. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> And obviously this is something that affects all of us to differing extents. >> It is it is quite it is quite interesting because as somebody like myself for example, >> I mean technically my diagnosis would be complex PTSD. tell you what that is. >> Yeah. But in my daily kind of, you know, interactions with, does anyone ever stop to think this person I'm dealing with might have been battling or overcome complex trauma in their life or have mechanisms in place to kind of deal with? Well, of course they don't. They just treat you as oh, you know. >> Yeah. What's the what's the when they say you've got, you know, complex PTSD, I mean, that just sounds like a copout, you know. What's what's the what's the actual true definition of complex PTSD? What's it doing to your mind? What's effect what effect is it having on you? Well, me personally, it's obviously something a moniker that I don't attach anything to simply because I just want to live my life and I believe I've got my life to a good place, mate. You know, and and and >> Yeah. >> But it's not without uh you know, it's still not without its challenges. >> Yeah. Yeah. And it's not something that's understood by society. And you can just see by the hatred on the internet, not only how people don't understand it, but how they're suffering from it. You know, they're suffering from some form of trauma uh itself. Hence, what what is it they call it like trauma responses? >> Well, this this is this is what I'm trying to this is what I'm trying to get at. You know, people often say, "Oh, you know, tra trauma is in the body." Well, you know, I mean, is it in my little toe? Is it in my big toe? Is it in my little pinky finger? You know, is is it in my heart? Is it in my chest? Is it in my head? You know, all these wishy-washy terms are all bullshit if you ask me because I I went through serious mental health where literally I almost took my own life. And there was something seriously wrong with me. Like actually wrong with me. Yeah. the the pain that I was experiencing in the center of my head was just [clears throat] un unbearable. Literally, it was, you know, like and it was right in the center. Like I couldn't rub it. I couldn't press it. It was just like a a constant ache that borded on, you know, pain. The it the ache was so painful and I was just like, look, I've never experienced this before. There is something wrong with my brain. There is a there is a chemical imbalance. you're the expert. Tell me what it is. And I'll tell you something, no one knows. No one knows. Which really pissed me off because I had to figure it out for myself. And since I figured out for myself, I thought, right, let's go on Chris Tho and explain it to everybody cuz he knows a lot of veterans that are already suffering with uh PTSD. So, should I tell you exactly what PTSD is, >> right? >> Yeah, by all means, go for it. Obviously, from my own experience, [laughter] I might I might question it question you a bit, but but you're on the show to speak your mind, mate. So, go for it. >> Okay. So, so PTSD is post-traumatic stress disorder. That's what they call it. So, what that means is you have suffered a traumatic event that you are still struggling to process. In other words, you know, it's affected you emotionally, you know, blah blah blah blah blah. But but this is what's actually happening in your brain. When you suffer a a re an extremely negative event that causes stress on the body and that stress generates cortisol and the cortisol then um stimulates the amydala and when it stimulates the amydala more cortisol is generated and it blocks the hippocampus from functioning. And the hippocampus deals with logic, reasoning, rationale, visual, spatial memory, assessment, judgment, sympathy, empathy, everything that makes us human. So when that is blocked, you can't think straight. And the whole point of it being blocked is so that you can gouge the eye out of your opponent without getting an attack of sympathy or empathy for them because you're fighting for your life. But what happens is when the when the cortisol is uh is generated and that stimulates the amydala, the amydala then generates more details of the event and the and then those details of the of the event generate more cortisol. The cortisol stimulates the amydala. The amydala stimulates more detailed memories of the event that generates more cortisol that stimulates the amydala. And you get stuck in this cycle of rumination. And what will happen is that if your hippocampus is exposed to cortisol for a prolonged period of time, the cortisol will then start to dissolve the neurons in your hippocampus. So in other words, it will actually damage your hippocampus so that it can't function properly until it effectively disengages. And it's your hippocampus that activates through, you know, reasoning and rationale, basically creativity and initiative to push the cortisol out of your brain and calm the amydala. But if your hippocampus is damaged, it can't function to tush the cortisol out of the brain and calm the amydala, which leaves you in this constant heightened state of of of fear and anxiety. And what what will happen eventually is that if you have a fully stimulated amydala and a completely blocked hippocampus, the the fully stimulated amydala generates feelings of impending doom. It's it's ultimate fear because you you literally, you know, you you're on this heightened sense all the time. But if your hippocampus is blocked, your hippocampus has got, you know, deals with creativity and initiative. So when that is blocked, you you experience a sensation of no hope. So when you start to experience that sensation of no hope and impending doom, that's when you end up with a suicidal mind. That's a stu that's a suicidal condition because you can't see a way out and and like you've got no hope and you you um experience this overwhelming sensations of impending doom like I've got nothing to live for. I can't get out of this situation and then they end up killing themselves. That's what happens. So it's a it's a state of mind where literally your your amydala is fully stimulated and your hippocampus is literally damaged from overexposure to cortisol. So the difference between uh anxiety and depression is this. So anxiety is just simply a blocked hippocampus for like you and a moment of anxiety and then that that disappears when the event finishes. However, when you're depressed, your hippocampus can't function to push the cortisol out the brain, which is why it takes so much longer to recover because you actually have to wait for your hippocampus to actually repair itself. That that's the difference. So literally with with PTSD you have to go through these this cycle of three things. So first of all you have to learn to dissolve the meaning that is generating all the cortisol that's stimulating the amydala. And when I say dissolve the meaning you have to realize that it's in the past. You know it it's gone. Yeah it happened. Yeah it was traumatic. But you know are you still breathing? Have you still got all your limbs? You even even if you haven't got your limbs have you got a nose? Can you still breathe? Can you still see? What can you do? You know, it might have taken something away like, you know, you might have had your leg blown off or your arm blown off or you might be in a wheelchair and paralyzed. Okay, like look, you know, there's nothing anybody can do about that. But the problem is in your brain. It's like, can you still sit there? Can you still breathe? Can you still see what's going on? And it's, okay, well, what can you do with that? But the thing is though, it's like, okay, well, I've got no legs anymore. Okay. Well, you know, so what does that mean that people are going to judge you differently? Cuz you'll be thinking, "Oh, yeah, I've got no legs. I can't walk. Nobody's going to want to speak to me anymore. Nobody's want to nobody's going to want to take me on a walk. You know, um my friends are going to reject me. I'm not going to be have a job. I'll be out on the streets. I'll be sleeping on the concrete. It's going to be cold in the winter and that's going to make me feel like shit and I'm not going to want to be here." So, it's it's all these things in your mind saying, "Oh, oh, the life is shit. I can't deal with this anymore. This is bullshit. No one's going to like me. I'm going to be a burden to everybody. It's all bullshit. You're just there breathing. You're there breathing, eating. You can still think straight. You just simply have to dissolve that bullshit meaning. And and I get it's hard. It's not easy. It took me a long time to actually think, well, what does it actually mean to dissolve the meaning? Well, you know, you came from nothing. You're going back to nothing. So, what have you got? What have you lost? You've lost nothing. But right now, you've got something. You can breathe. You can see. You might be you still got one. You know, you might you've got one hand. You might have a leg, you can still sit up straight. You can still do something. So, it's just like dissolve the meaning of, oh, people are going to judge me, you know, blah blah blah. You are you and you have just got to make the best of what you've got, you know, and that is it. But the next thing you have to do is cuz you can't live in that state of of neutrality because if you've got nothing to live for, well, then there's no reason to live. All that does is dissolve the meaning, take you down to base. It takes you down to neutral and then you can start again. So then what you have to do is you have to shock the hippoc campus into functioning. And when I say shock the hippoc campus into functioning, you have to realize how much worse the situation could actually be. Yeah, like like literally when when you when you study some true life crime and you you know see they see the horrors of satanic ritual abuse and child trafficking and organ harvesting and you know like oh my I mean literally you know the the stuff that's you know have you been I mean you might have PTSD but you know have you been eaten by a crocodile you know have you have you had all your limbs ripped off? Yeah you still you're still breathing. Somebody has experienced that. Somebody's been eaten alive by a shark. Somebody has had their limbs ripped off by by a crocodile, you know. Some somebody has been tortured and burnt. Yeah. I mean, just look at all the stuff they used to do in medieval times, you know, like you putting them in that steel bull and all that kind of stuff. Is that happening to you? Well, no. You're just sitting there struggling with your own mental health. So, it's just like, well, are you actually in pain right now? No. I'm I'm I'm actually sat on a chair with a roof over my head. Yeah. I might not know where my next meal is going to come from, but if I use my initiative, I'll get it. Chances are there's food nearby. No one's going to let me starve, you know? So, you have to shock the hippoc campus into functioning. But you can only do that when you appreciate how much worse the situation could actually be. And then after that, you you have to practice gratitude for what you've got in order to keep your hippocampus stimulated and the cortisol at bay. But here's the amazing thing. If you can stimulate your hippocampus for a prolonged period of time with creativity and initiative, your hippocampus that that stimulation of the hippocampus will then actually lead on to stimulation of the pineal gland, which will then allow intuition to flow, which is one of the most amazing experiences you can ever have as as a human being because you can tap into the ether. Literally, you you you start having premonitions of of what's going to happen in the future. we all these things that you I initially thought were a bit woowoo like you know uh telepathy and you know like astral projection and what's the other one they do in the um in the CIA um remote viewing all this kind of stuff that I thought was a little bit woowoo we actually have the ability to do that from our pineal gland when it connects to the ether and this is why they're feeding us all that shit like processed food and fluoride and all that to calcify our pineal glands so that we can't do So, I'll tell you what happened to me is like when when my when I was experiencing this, you know, this mental breakdown from for 3 years, I refused to take any medication cuz I was just like, "This is insane. Like, I've never had anything like this before. Somebody must know what's going on." But no one knows, which is why I'm on your show explaining it. But that pain that was dissolving the neurons in my hippocampus, at the same time, I think it was also decalcifying my pineal gland because when I recovered, that's when I started receiving intuition. And I was just like, "Hold on a minute. What is this?" You know, like visions of, you know, visions of future events and stuff like this. It all started it all started happening. And that's what really gives you a sense of purpose because you're you're you're conction. You're connecting to the ether. You're connecting to a higher power that has then got a message for you that gives you purpose in your life. So I would say like, you know, you got PTSD and like all the professionals will say, "Oh, you got trauma in the body. Oh, it's to do with childhood trauma." I say bullshit. I'm calling bullshit on it. Literally, it is the it is the cortisol in your brain stimulating your amydala that then generates more details of the event. And whether that might be an event that happened in your childhood, fair enough, it might well be. But you've got to dissolve whatever the meaning is that and you know the the visions that it's that it's bringing you in order to stop the generation of cortisol. And then you have to activate your hippocampus with creativity and initiative by asking yourself, right, okay, what am I going to do? what I'm what am I going to do? That's the ultimate way to stimulate your hippocampus and push the cortisol out your brain. And if you can be constantly thinking, what am I going to do? What am I going to do? What's next? What can be done? How can I get out of this? That will eventually lead onto stimulation of your pineal gland, which will then, like I said, will allow you to receive messages from above. And you can you can be a conduit and it gives you purpose because you realize there is such there is a bigger power out there. And they always say, you know, if you're feeling depressed, you know, stop looking down at your feet and look up at the stars. You know, that that's what that's what people should do. So, it is harsh, but like when when somebody's struggling with PTSD, like they get stuck in rumination. And you can always tell when stuck in when someone is stuck in rumination cuz they repeat themselves over and over and over and over again. But rather than saying to them, look, you snap out of it. You have to say to them, look, mate, you're stuck in rumination. your your amygdala is is fully stimulated and that amydala is what's generating cortisol in your body, you know, and and making you feel like absolute crap. So, the only way you're going to get out of it is by stimulating your hypoc campus with creativity and initiative. So, what are you going to do, you know, and that's that's pretty much it in a nutshell. How do you uh how do you respond to that having a does so does it make sense to you, >> mate? I've lived through it, haven't I? So, I know exactly what you're you're saying. We're going to have to break this down gently because there'll be people watching that this is going to go over their head. Um my story I won't repeat it in any depth because my audience has heard it many times but if there's anyone new uh watching is you know I got so chronically unwell through old school thinking let's call it you know ex ex-military so I've got that identity I've left that behind I took on a business identity let's just say that failed. I've come back from Hong Kong, a place I loved. I was a dorman for the Hong Kong triads. Not that I'm a criminal or anything, but you know, for a lost young man who'd been taken in by a crime family and said, "Look, you can work on our nightclub." It it it was all that childhood family shit that I never had, Satoshi, you know. So, >> and when I I I got so low that I literally lived what you're talking about. I was living an identity and a conditioning that society had put on me and it wasn't working. And I was really lucky that in a chronic nervous breakdown where I couldn't go any lower, I'd become a person that I never was. People used to like me. Girls used to give me their phone numbers on a night out. I, you know, I had the BMW, the mobile phone when people were like, "What's that? What are you talking into?" It's called a mobile phone. Really? You know, I know it's all materialistic bullshit and we've all grown above that now, but what I'm saying is is there's me, >> you know, I'm injecting drugs like 12 times a day just to try to rise above the and >> let let me tell let me tell you about injecting drugs. So, just quickly, so again, I've solved alcohol addiction and drug addiction. So, alcohol addiction is when you take alcohol, alcohol is a suppressant. So what the alcohol does is it suppresses the amygdala from generating cortisol. And when when the amydala is suppressed and not generating cortisol, that allows the hippocampus to function, which is why when people get drunk, they feel jovial and funny and have all these creative ideas and all this kind of stuff and it makes them feel good. But as soon as the alcohol wears off, you know, the the amydala starts to stimulate again, it blocks the hippocampus and you feel like shit. And then the way you deal with that is you have some more to drink. But alcohol suppresses the amydala. Whereas what drugs do, drugs stimulate the hippocampus and the hippocampus then pushes the cortisol out of the brain to calm the amydala and make you feel good about yourself and you have all of these creative ideas. But the process is exactly the same. Alcohol suppresses the amydala. Drugs stimulate the hippocampus which calms the amydala. But the moment they both wear off, you know, um the cortisol starts to come through again, blocks the hippocampus from functioning, creativity initiative dries up, and then you feel like shit again, and you all right, well, you know, let's just have some more. Same with gambling addiction. When when you're there in front of a machine, you've got all the wheels turning, you've got the lights flashing in front of your face, you got music playing, you think, "Oh, I've got a chance of winning here." So, you put your money in, you know, the go turns around, you lose your money, the lights turn off, the music stops, the wheels stop turning, you've got this sense of panic because you've uh you've lost your funds and you thought you were actually going to be up and now you're down and then there's nothing to keep the hippocampus stimulated and then suddenly you panic and so you go back in again for another go to start all the stimulation again. But it's all to do with the hippocampus. And in order to understand the significance of this, you need to know how the brain is structured. [clears throat] So you have your spine that runs up the center of your back and then you have your brain stem on the top of your spine that leads right into the center of your head. And on top of that brain stem is your amygdala. And so your amydala is literally the center of your brain. It is your, you know, survival response of fight, flight, freeze. It's all your inconsiderate um selfish, you know, self-preservation responses. But your hippocampus sits sits over that. And it's your hippoc campus like I said that deals with logic, reasoning, rationale, visual, spatial memory, assessment, judgment, sympathy, empathy, everything that makes us everything that makes us human. So [clears throat] we always that it's the amydala that causes the negativity bias because that that's the first thing at the top of the brain stem. So self first then self selfless later when the when the hippocam when the hippoc campus stimulates. So, let's say you've got like your, you know, you've got your um uh amygdala and hippocampus here. What connects the two is your pineal gland. And when you're sort of walking down a dark alley at night and your hairs on the back of your neck, stand on end, you think, "Oh, yeah, this could be in a dodgy place." Well, that's your hippoc camp. That's your pineal gland receiving intuition telling you that something negative might happen and you're on high alert. So, [clears throat] it stimulates your amydala. Whereas when you're sort of like trying to solve a problem, you know, and then suddenly you get like, you know, a download or, you know, a moment of inspiration, you're like, "Oh, I get it." That is intuition being received by your hippoc campus and being by your pineal gland and being sent straight to your hippocampus to use creativity and initiative to unpack the idea that you've got and solve the problem. So that's pretty much it. If if people understood how the brain was structured, you know, and uh and the issue that cortisol has on the brain, they could they could literally probably just help themselves like I did. But instead, what they do is they wanted to call some fancy chat line, you know, like I did one day when I called the Samaritans and they were just like, "Oh, hello. How are you?" And I was just like, "Well, you know, I'm calling the Samaritans. That might give you an idea as to how I am. I'm feeling absolute shit." and and you should know that if I'm calling the Samaritans and I'm feeling absolute shit and my hippoc campus is completely blocked, the last thing I can do is actually answer a question. So, I remember sort of like groaning a little bit and then they were like, "Oh, would you like to speak to us because we can't speak to you if you don't want to speak to us?" And I was just like, "Is this the last line of defense for somebody who's literally about to top themselves? This is absolutely outrageous." Not that I want to give them, you know, not that I'm trying to be a shittow towards them or anything like that, but they were completely incompetent and and you know, just clueless about mental health. And then I realized, holy shit, everyone's clueless because no matter where I went, whether I went to my local GP like the, you mental health support worker or like mind or anything like you know, the conversation very quickly got a little bit too deep and they were like, "Well, you know, if you're really struggling, call the Samaritans." And I was just like, "Holy shit, that that must be like, you know, the the you don't really want to call them because, you know, they might be you on a call with somebody else. I don't I don't want to interrupt them. That must be like the real deal." But then when I did need them, they couldn't help. Like no. And then I was just like, "Oh my god, it's just absolutely no one effing knows." So that's why I thought, you know what? I'll go on Chris's show and explain it. Yes. I mean, it's something we talk about a lot. Just just to finish off my story because I hope it can help someone. Um, in that moment of utter depravity and and and you know, mental breakdown, I I I I was quite lucky, Satoshi. I just suddenly saw the light and I thought, um, oh, sorry, my phone's going off. Um, and I I did three things, which ties in with what you're saying. I left the past behind >> because that was the source of conditioning, which was the source of stress. You know, you need to be like this. You need to be, you're an ex-Marine. you you know your friends are all driving BMWs and they're earning you know back then we're talking 25 years or something they're all earning 30 grand. I was like hang on a sec let's let's put that to one side. Let's be grateful because life is an amazing thing. It's a gift. Let's let's just be grateful for my life. Um, let's leave the past behind because that's all conditioning about how you should be and how you and let's take action which is what ties in with what you're saying was stimulating the right part of the brain >> which is going to get you out of it. So my action was to cut down on the gear I was taking, wake up every day and say thank you for this life and amazingly the process that you've described took place in my brain and the next day was better. In fact, not only that, I knew I didn't know then what a pineal gland was, but what I did know is I'd made this connection that I had never I'd been sheltered from or or steered away from probably from and I just knew that I wasn't it wasn't just me now. There was something bigger here going on. And like I say, that was 25 30 years ago. and I've I've woken up in paradise every day since and I I refuse to leave. Um, so yes, you kind of preach in the choir. It's like I I get it. The the question would be how do you kind of like break this down into layman's terms for people >> absolutely struggling? >> Yeah. So if if they're absolutely struggling they will not be able to get out of bed. Like literally you cannot you cannot think at all because your hippocampus is completely blocked. Therefore, you have no initiative and no creativity to even base the initiative on. So, literally what I found is that before I went to bed, I had to at least visualize what I was going to do at least in the morning. At least in the morning, I was just like, "Right, I'm I'm going to get up. I'm going to put my slippers on. I'm going to put my dressing gown on. I'm going to go downstairs. I'm going to boil the kettle. I'm going to make myself a cup of coffee. And I'm I might, you know, I'm going to put my clothes back on. and then I might go for a walk, you know, and that's literally all I could do. When I was really struggling, the most I could do was just put one foot in front of the other. I couldn't I literally couldn't think about anything else. But if you think about that the night before, when you get up the following morning, you're on autopilot. And while you're doing these things on autopilot, you're effectively sort of kickstarting the hippoc campus. Yeah, like you know, like you're um like a um pulling like on a on an airplane or like you're pushing a motorbike or, you know, pushing a car along. It's just you're literally just trying to, you know, kickstart your hippoc campus like you're kickstarting the engine to to get it going again. And if you do that constantly day after day after day after day, eventually you will be a to you will be able to get through an entire day. And then and then like literally, you know, probably like a month or so or two months later because you're on autopilot and then your your hypocampus is naturally starting to engage with you again. Suddenly you recover a lot quicker. But I found that even when I was uh you when they were saying, "Oh, you know, you're suffering from mental health. You've got to exercise." Well, let me tell you what happened when I was exercising. I went exercising. Exercise. Exercise puts stress on the body. And even the tiniest amount of stress would generate cortisol and that would go straight into my brain and trigger my amydala which would create this stoning headache. So I couldn't I literally couldn't even exercise you know and I didn't really know what was going on with my brain at the time. But when I realized oh right so it's just it's baby steps like it's just like okay right well I can't exercise but I know what's going on with my brain and and therefore you know what I need to do is just exercise without generating cortisol. So, I'll just do a little bit today and then I'll do a little bit more tomorrow. You and and a little bit more the next day and and eventually I recovered. But I couldn't recover if I didn't know what was going on with my brain cuz I'd be too stressed about not really understanding what was happening to me. Whereas, when I actually started to understand the process, I was just like, right, so I I need to re-engage my hippoc campus, right? Okay, like little bits of autopilot here, have an idea about what I'm going to do. you know, I might sort of try and go shopping or something like this, you know, but as soon as I figured out what I needed to do, I I could do everything myself. So, that's that's how I recovered. But if people don't know this, they're literally going to be, well, you know, the fact that they don't know this is probably what's going to be causing them even more anxiety, you know, because they're, oh, I can't do this. I don't understand it. I'm having I'm having trouble, you know, doing this and doing that and I can't speak to people and I'm having panic attacks and nightmares and night sweats and all this kind of stuff. Whereas like if if they just knew you need it's all about stimulating your hippocampus to push the cortisol out your brain to calm the amydala. That that's that's all it is. That's literally all mental health is. It's stimulating the hippocampus to push the cortisol out the brain and calm the amydala. And the only reason I found this out is because um some scientists were you know looking at the brain you know trying to figure out anxiety and depression and all that and they found that the hippoc campus is the only part of the brain that actually increases in size when it's being used because it's used for creativity initiative and initiative and therefore memory. So when they monitored all the brains of those people who were trying to pass their the Hackne carriage test for the black cabs in London, they found that the hippocampus actually increased in size due to the memory because they were trying to find routs through London, you know, and and remember all the road names and stuff like that. And then they realized that actually when the hippocampus started growing um the the amydala was kept calm because when the amydala is stimulated it blocks the hypocampus and therefore it can't function properly. So when you're trying to figure something out it's really important that your hippocampus is is remains calm and at bay and it's the you know the the amigdula remains calm and at bay. So, so the h you have to stimulate your hippocampus and the hippocampus extends out the back of your head and because it deals with you know visual spatial memory and assessment judgment and sympathy and all that kind of stuff. Um this is why um referees in in boxing matches and UFC fights and all that kind of stuff they always say don't hit the back of the head. Watch the back of the head. And that's because if you get hit in the back of your head and your hippoc campus gets damaged literally because it deals with visual spatial memory um literally you can't assess what you're doing. And that's why when fighters do get hit on the back of the head they literally fall like a sack of potatoes literally because because their ability to assess where they're putting their feet and anything like that completely disappears. So that that's why the referee always says watch the back of the head. It's because the main part of your hippoc campus is there. So it yeah I mean you you can even when you're studying this you know all these things sort of fell into place. I was just right I get that that makes sense now. Why don't more people know about this? You know so that's why I thought I'd come on your show and share it. >> Absolutely. Um what do we say then? Let's just take a veterans example. So, you've had, I don't know, anything up to 25. In these days, it's like 30 years of conditioning in the military. You've been led to believe that you're brilliant because you wear a funny colored hat and you, you know, you're the best of the be and and the day you leave is in the case of one of my friends, you you know, he took his own life >> and he had four children. So something s What do we say about identity? Well, the thing is I mean he he he he could have had a you know a selfidentity crisis. He could have felt disrespected. when you when but also he would have been chances are he would have been suffering from PTSD from the trauma that he experienced in the military you know and then and then when somebody you know um seems to lose their shit over something so trivial when when having experienced you know all the traumas that you do when you're in the military and then you come out and you find that people are losing their shit over the fact that they might have trotten in some dog shit and you're just like really and you're just like I can't be asked with all this fucking bullshit, you know, and then you he probably Yeah. probably would have topped himself because uh it's a bit like when um when abused females end up going back to their partners. So, what happens is when when they're in the relationship, they're constantly treading on eggshells because, you know, they don't want to get beaten up or smacked around and all this kind of stuff. And it's it's that habit. They have to engage the hippocampus to use their initiative to try and stop themselves from getting beaten up because they're in an abusive relationship. But the moment someone takes them out of that relationship and they no and they then no longer have to tread on eggshells and they're not engaging the hippocampus, all the cortisol comes rushing through from all the traumatic memories that they've um you that they've accumulated and there's nothing to push the cortisol out and they feel so terrible and so suicidal that they rationalize to themselves, oh well actually I was better off when I was in the abusive relationship. So they actually end that's why these women abused women end up going back to their partners because when you take them out of that abusive situation they now no longer have to engage the hippoc campus anymore and the cortisol comes rushing through and it's so bad it triggers a suicidal mind you and they go back. So I I suspect that your friend unfortunately when he came out of the army there was you know he would have there would have been nothing um stimulating his hippoc campus. There would have been nobody telling him what to do. wouldn't wouldn't have been on this heightened sense of alert and sort of treading on eggshells, you know, and the the cortisol would have blocked his hippocampus, stimulated his amydala, and very very quickly induced a suicidal mind. And then he did what he did. Yeah, there's another angle here. I'm just chucking this in from a psychosocial perspective is, you know, I think a lot of us joined the military because we didn't get love from our family. All right. >> And when it comes to a bloke, we're talking about the father, aren't we? You know, and it could be something silly like your dad was he was too involved in his career. He didn't realize that like working, you know, 24/7 what he thought was good, providing, making up the career. He's actually completely neglecting, you could say, abusing his children, right? >> Yeah. Yeah. >> So, a young man is like, I can prove myself. I I'll join the mil, you know, I'll join an elite unit and D and you've got this big head and this this funny colored hat and everyone, you know, you go in the pub and every like that guy, he's in the Marines or he's in the Paris or some people say he's like special and then you come out and all of that haunting from childhood comes back to you, that feeling of lack of selfworth. stuff. >> Yeah. >> And you're not, you know, a captain in the Royal Marines anymore. You're just like Chris F in Civy Street. Can't even get a job in Tesco stacking shells or that's that how how you feel. Um well, this is this is why you have to dissolve the meaning. Yeah. Because when what what you're describing there is is the meaning like, oh, you know, I was in the military. I was in special forces. I was a brigadier, you know, blah blah blah blah blah. And and now I'm nothing. You know, people don't respect me. You know, I can't get a job in Tesco stacking shelves, you know, I'm I'm a I'm a nobody. People have got no respect for me. You know, I've got no respect for myself. I don't know what to do. That that's the meaning. You have to dissolve that meaning. And it's it's hard. There could be an entire industry developed on dissolving the meaning. But that's what you have to do. You have to Nothing means nothing. You are still you. Whatever it is you've got, whether you've got a hand blown off or you got an eye missing, even if you're blind or you're dumb or you can't see, you've got something and and and that is something that you need to use because the fact that you've got something is more than someone else has got because somebody else died 5 minutes ago. Other people are 6 feet under. They've got no chance left. You've still got breath in your body. And where there where there is life, there is hope. And as long as you are living, you can do something. That's it. The problem is, as far as I see it, and this is, you know, is as long as you buy into society's bullshit in its constructs and its conditioning and it's like, hey, this guy's a lawyer, so he's better than this guy who's a refuge. You know, all that shit. Especially my generation, like, you know, we had that from our parents. If as long as you buy into that instead of going no actually I answer to the spiritual first if you want to call it God what you whatever works this is what I am I'm universe experiencing itself subjectively all of that is just fucking silly little human constructs of which silly little men think that they're more important than other men because they don't you know and it. I think this is an issue Satoshi if that makes sense. >> Oh yeah. Well, this this is what I'm saying. You have to learn to dissolve the meaning. >> Dissolve the meaning. Yes. >> Yeah. Dissolve. This is the number one. Dissolve the meaning. But literally, you can't you can't live in that state where nothing means nothing. That's why you have to shock the hippoc campus into functioning. And you know, rather than thinking of yourself, think about how other people are actually worse off. Whereas what society does, it constantly makes us look at all those people who are far more better off than us. So, you know, rather than looking at people that are more better off, you know, actually what you need to do is appreciate what you've got compared to someone else. Because you know somebody somebody else is being beaten up, somebody else is drawing their last breath. Somebody else is being tortured right there and then. Someone else is on death row. Someone else is in Grant Bay and you know undergoing um uh what do they call it when when they um torture people by lack of stimulus you know um I can't remember what it is off the top. deprivation. >> That's yeah, sensory deprivation. Yeah. And again, the way sensory deprivation works is that it disengages the hippocampus. If you can't see any colors and if you can't hear any noise, you literally, you know, your your hippocam and you don't even know which way is up or down and your hippocampus hasn't got anything to stimulate it. There's nothing to stop the cortisol from coming through and the amydala triggering. And that's why when people are sens people are in this place of sensory deprivation, they go mental because eventually they will stimulate a a suicidal mind. You know the conditions of a suicidal mind. So what we're effectively talking here is professionals. We call them professionals, but let's be honest, to become like a therapist or a psychologist or you got to do three years at uni, haven't you? Excuse my French, but that's fuck all. >> And when I did, I I studied uh social work at master's degree. >> I remember the first day we had to introduce ourselves. One one girl's there, her degree was in violin. uh you know another person their degree was like classical fucking French or some and I know they meant well and I'm not putting myself I mean I came from a back work of youth and community so I had a lot of theory base with which to take to that course you know >> but I remember I mean one time we're talking about the AfroCaribbean community in the UK and the lecturer said to us, "Right, split up into your groups. I want you to write on your paper the positive and negative connotations of the Afro Caribbean community." And fuck me, sorry I'm swearing, but I do that a lot actually. Um, here's the thing, right? The first group got up and their representative presented what they'd come up with and they said, "Yeah, the the negative aspects of the Caribbean community are like reggae music and and smoking marijuana." [laughter] I [snorts] thought, right, you've just like literally deleted all the central tenants of Rastafarianism [laughter] in your in your biased white judgment. And they said, and but the positive um aspects are like pina coladas and sunny beach. [laughter] And I'm I'm chuckling, but I'm just trying to give an example of like how little you have to know about life to become a professional. >> And I know doctors do a bit longer and I know there's some incredible professionals out there. I'm not, you know, generalizing. Well, maybe I am. But there's no way you can do a three-year course at uni and know what you you've just talked about or even understand an inkling of of my life experience. Um so I guess that's a good thing about podcasting, isn't it? podcasting is all about actually getting getting people's special knowledge out there because it none it's it's never you're never going to find it in a textbook. All the textbooks are bullshit. The education system is bullshit and it's designed that way on purpose or you know obviously now that we know but I what I would actually I what I would like is one I would like to help these veterans who are suffering and struggling with PTSD. And not only do I want them to be able to help themselves, I want them to be able to help others. So if they can understand what's going on in their brain and cure themselves, they can help their fellow men. And then ultimately what I would actually really like the veteran community to do is to help us in the struggles that we're facing because we need people like those veterans to actually focus their skills on learning the law and the constitution. If you understand, well actually I've got sense of what's right and what's wrong and that's what a lot of people don't have, but the veterans have got that. So, if you say to them things like, look, if there's no victim, there's no crime. If there's no claimant, there's no claim. If there's no uh contract, there's no obligation. So, what's all this thing about, oh, you've committed an offense? Well, you're saying I've committed an offense. Who's claiming I've committed an offense? Have I caused any harm, injury, or loss to anybody? And do I have a contract with anybody? All right. So, you're trying to uh extract funds from me via via deceptive means is what's going on. that honestly the we what we are experiencing them at the moment is complete and utter tyranny and we need the veterans on side and in order to get the veterans on side they have to be you know mentally tough and my knowledge can help them get over this any form of PTSD that they might be struggling with but if you're a veteran and you've got this sense of what's right and what's wrong and you want to fight for your country I would say get in contact with you and you put them in contact with me and let's get started because we need You seriously? >> Yeah. As you know, cuz we talked about this at the beginning of our show. I'm just going to show a little photo here. Um, I summited Everest the other day, last week, week before. I think my whole mission, Satoshi, was to All right, let me let me You're going to have to let me talk a bit here, but let me just peel back. Last year I rode the Atlantic with my buddy Louie, >> former Irish Guardsman, super super guy. And we rode the Atlantic to raise awareness of veterans mental health and the fact that most veterans don't die from combat, they die from suicide. Right? This is an issue especially in peace time. They die from suicide. We raise money for their children. Scotty's Little Soldiers, big shout out there, right? That all these charities want you to think that PTSD is like a combat thing. Why? Because it's a money raiser, isn't it? If you think your veterans are heroes, they're in there, they're smashing it for you, you know, and they come back and they've got this awful tro and and it's not it's not the truth. So when I summited Everest, my mission Satoshi was to get people to understand that there's a scientific proven link between suicide in the veterans community and childhood trauma, right? Not not always. I mean, there's probably people that had a horrible experience in war and maybe that finished them off. I I I I I would argue probably that was the cataly catalyst for a mental health episode because I think your childhood predispositions you to how you can cope with adult life and of I'm not saying you can't get better at coping with adult life and you know you're looking at someone that's had to. So, you know, that was my mission. But the problem is society we it's in its infancy. It's no, it's in its embryionic stage of understanding trauma. It's so easy from the Vietnam film, you know, Rambo, first blood that, oh, these guys, they they they do this thing and it and it and it it affects them so much that they and yeah, my whole mission was just to say, come on, folks. You know, so many of us that join the military, we come from, I don't want to say damage backgrounds, but that's the best way to describe it. you know, kicked from pillar to post, parental divorce, daddy didn't love you enough, mommy was a bit scatty, yada yada yada. So, yeah, like I'm I'm totally on board with with this new wave of trying to get people to understand the people that need it. I mean, like, why are they suffering? And I've had messages, Satoshi, from people on my media going, Chris, I always wondered why am I suffering like this when I was never in conflict and yet I'm a veteran and I would say I've got all the symptoms of PTSD. I can't go to the charities because, you know, they only support war heroes, don't they? It's like so >> well you know when uh when I was doing my research honestly Chris you wouldn't believe there is there is an there is an epidemic of suicides when I when I actually started asking questions to other people because like the advice you get is oh you go speak to somebody I literally couldn't believe how many family members and close friends of mine had actually attempted suicide that I knew nothing about literally nothing. And when they it was only when I was struggling that they started opening up to me and they were like, "Yeah, I nearly jumped off a bridge. I took an overdose. I ended up in hospital gave my stomach pumped and all this kind of stuff." And I was just like, "Wow, these are people in my immediate circle, you know, and and when you when you when you count, you know, when you realize how few people there are in your immediate circle and such a high percentage of them has actually attempted suicide, you then you then think to yourself, well, this is like a hidden epidemic in society, you know, which is why people need to know what causes it. It is literally a stimulated amygdala stimulated with traumatic events and therefore you have to rationalize those traumatic events and dissolve the meaning in order to push the cortisol out your brain. And then you need to understand how much worse the situation could actually be to shock the hippoc campus into the um into functioning to push the cortisol out the brain and calm the amydala. And then practice gratitude from then on every day to eventually stimulate your pineal gland where you can receive intuition. Absolutely. A way I just chuck this in there cuz I hope this helps someone. I always say when we were living in the forests, when we was, you know, gatherers, hunter gather, whatever you your you know, your your your belief is about what we should eat. Um, it was like you're in paradise, the sun's shining, you're you're you're out there, you're picking your nuts and your berries, and it it's it's all gravy. It's a natural human state to be in that beautiful um kind of uh equilibrium w with the universe, with life. That's it. Now, occasionally a bloody bear or a wolf or or a saber-tooth t would appear and in that moment you need to go into fight, flight or freeze mode, right? All the all the stress responses and you'd go into fight mode. You stick this bear with your spear or whatever and it would go away. And then guess what? You got another week, two week, three, six months without that bear there. You're perfectly in equilibrium again. What society does through its media, through its cruel media and through its cruel conditioning and through it like you got to be like this, you got to have medals on your chest, you got to have an OB, you got and all this stuff that people don't conform to because we're all just bloody normal. What it does is it puts that bear in your life all the time if you haven't if you're not mentally aware of it, >> you know, and suddenly you're in that flight, fight or freeze mode all the time, flooding your brain with the cortisol. >> Well, you know, I would say that they they they do that on purpose, mate. Now that we now that we know who how they operate because they are you they are child sacrificing you know black magic uh believers you they know all of this shit and they purposely put us under stress in order to create luch energy you know which they believe which they believe that their demon spirits are are thriving off and they and they and they absolutely believe this and they their remote viewers have seen it and one of the things that that puts people in this sense of stress is finance. Yeah, it's finance. What they'll do is they'll they'll tax you to death. They'll put a tax on your property. You know, they they'll probably even do child tax in the, you know, in the future, fuel tax, car tax, road tax, health tax, national insurance. It's all bullshit because they print currency for nothing. So, what we need is these people to understand the law that they fought for cuz they were they're protecting their country. Well, it's our country that is now under attack from within. We can't fly our flags anymore. Yeah. We can't say we're proud to be British. Yeah. We're meant to be a multi a multi a multicultural society and all this bullshit, you know, but it but it all stems from the banks. Whereas if we simply knew what the constitution was, we can protect our constitutional rights. So obviously, yeah, we're all described as being on the far right now, but we're only described of being on the far right by the predatory left. And and the reason they're predators is because they want to break up your family and they want to take you and they want to destroy your home. So all these people all all they want to do is protect their property and look after their family. And this is what we need the veterans for. So I'll say one one more time. If someone sees this and they were just like I get what Satoshi is saying, you know, like we we first of all I need to fix my mental health. I can help him with that and then they can help others with that. It's very simple. literally just stimulate the hippoc campus, push the cortisol out your brain, get your hippocampus stimulated again. Then we need to learn the law. Then we need to get ourselves out of this financial hole that we're in because it's what they're doing is they're asset stripping us with securities fraud >> because a promise the promisory note that we're using at the moment. A promise is not a contract. A promise therefore cannot be enforced. A promise therefore has no value. Which means you can't securitize a promise. Yeah. In other words, you can't turn a promise into a financial instrument such as a promisory note. And like you can't turn luck into a financial instrument. The only reason it's accepted is because it's accepted in maritime law. Because in maritime law, you're dealing with corporate maritime entities that don't exist and therefore they don't need any true value to to um to conduct commerce. Whereas we as living men and women need true value which means we have to revert back to using a true money again. And money gets its value from supply and demand. So if something is useful it's valuable. If something is useless it's worthless. And the cabal never ever thought in a million years that they could commoditize data. And that's what Bitcoin is. So if any of the veterans out there literally if they want to speak to me to cure themselves of their PTSD and then help save our country, get in contact with you and then you can get them in contact with me. The problem is, and this is a good time to interject, are you familiar with Habad Lovich? >> I am. Yeah. So, we got an entity in society that generally believe that they're bringing around their their their new Messiah that in order for him to come, they first have to go through deprivation and and see the antichrist or the anti- messiah. And this is a group that own a lot. We're talking like they I think they were gifted a3 million pound building in in in in America fairly recently and and what I'm trying to say and then you look at like look at 911 and I would say they're minions who Oh, [sighs and gasps] if I say ash cans, I think people know what what I'm talking about, right? >> Yeah. >> This is your your your Howard Lutnick, whose brother died in 911 and yet he wasn't in the building that day and your Larry Silverstein who happened to have a dermatologist appointment that day. Right. [snorts] It's I don't know how the control works, but I'm guessing the Habad control the um the ash cams as as it were. And they're fucking us over, Satoshi. >> And we are so soft. We've become so liberal because of the brainwashing. Not our fault. The brainwash, you know, you're not allowed to, you know, hate people. You're not allowed to have an opinion. You're not allowed. Hang on. You can do all of those things. You're a free you. If you don't want to like someone of another race, that's completely up to you. I'm not suggesting, you know, we all become rap. Uh but >> we're getting fucked, mate. We're getting fucked. And I I can tell you as a member of the vet like 99.9 have they wouldn't understand what we're talking about now, right? Because their eye is been so much on East Enders and you know Grand Prix and what's happening in the football at the that that it's just so and the only reason I'm mentioning it is [gasps] [sighs] you get one life, don't you? And I'm a father and I'm standing up for my fucking boy, mate. You know, >> and I'll call it out as it is. We've been fucked. Look at the people behind co when I say I I've ne I never call it I only ever call it scam vid. So apologies. Um, you know, look, look at Black Rockck LA, Larry Frink, look at COVID, Albert Baller, chairman of F, you know, can you not see they're in a network that we're not in and they fucking hate you because they literally put something on you that they knew would kill millions upon millions, as they've done in Africa, as they've, you know, as they did with the the AIDS fucking shit. >> To do this is because they control the financial system. Everything everything stems from their control of the financial system. And you're right. I think they're Habad Luovich. I think they're above the 13 families. I think it's them at the top, >> but they they they control the banks. So literally if if people understood the fact that they are fucking us over by using a medium of exchange that is simply fraud. It's securities fraud as defined in law by SEC versus WJ code 1946. And if we just simply went reverted back to using a money that was outside of their control that nobody controlled that was a true money a commodity money they would lose control of everything and this is this is where we would start to win. But we need we need we need we need people who understand the difference between right and wrong. That's the main thing. And I think veterans have got a strong idea of what's right and wrong. So if they can if I can fix them, if I can, you know, prevent them from feeling this trauma of this PTSD, they can then put themselves to good use and start learning the Constitution and start learning about finance. And then we can hopefully get out of this shit hole that we're in. 100% brother I do believe people are waking up to I I don't know in what proportion what I can tell you is when you look online fuck me these guys are not getting a good time people are recognizing this shit you know um the way I explain it to my friends out there is that we're in a satanic inversion. Everything is against you. It's not normal to have Sam Smith wearing his Teletubby boots, right? See the connection with with young children there >> as your number one number one >> bestselling pop artist. That is not It's not normal to have a diet >> of mass carbohydrate which literally acidifies your body. So you are fucking not only sick three times a year, but then you die when between 50 and 70 of some fucking hideous disease. You you know um >> well here's the thing in terms of health literally from so my researchers told me that literally if you are ill if you when you go down the the health rabbit hole there's only ever two things at the bottom. It's either a parasite or a pollutant and that's it. Yeah, exactly. You know, we we we're creatures of the forest. We should eat shit in the forest. We shouldn't be eating McDonald's. Um, you know. Yes. Okay, Satoshi, listen. I'm conscious. I don't want to just sort of ramble on even though I know you and me can chat about like all kinds of crap. Um, my message to anyone struggling out there, whether you're a veteran or a civilian, just do what I did. Leave the past behind. It's a load of fucking bullshit. Nobody cares that you was the£100,000 CEO. Like, literally nobody cares except you. So, leave that behind. Be grateful for this life cuz it's beautiful. There's so many people that we all know now that are dead in the military. You you Jesus Christ, you you lose so many good BS through horrible, you know, car accidents, motorbike accidents, active service, bloss they slept in the bed next to you in training or or in your you right. They're not here anymore. What would they say if you're struggling? They'd say, "Chris, come on, mate. This life's great. I so much wish I was here. Please, please leave all the bullshit that's in your head and just grasp the fact that you're a lovely person. You're massively every person on this planet is massively loved by so many people. They're just hesitant to tell you because they're not like me. I'll say I love you to all my mates. All my mates hug and kiss me." Now I I beautiful thing of this podcast [snorts] is is my mates have gravitated to me because they fucking love me, right? And I I'm I'm never I can pick up the phone literally 24/7 and I've got a positive voice there, right? My life weren't like that. Before podcasting, it was all a bit fucking sketchy, you know, like does this person like me? Do I care? What's my idea? No. And leave the past behind. Be grateful cuz it's a great life. And take action. And that action, like Satoshi said, do the washing up, make a cup of tea, and enjoy that. You can just make it go for a walk, whatever it will be. That action will create the chemicals in your brain that will change your life. And uh >> that's how I enter paradise and I'm not leaving it, mate. You don't mean I don't have challenges. I just, you know, I just climb Mount Everest. I can promise you there's freaking challenges when you do that. And uh they're not pleasant. But are you going to let it affect your core, your connection with a you? No, of course you're not. You know, it's it's all human shit. You know, the challenges come from the human shit, from people. They're not as you know that that ah anyway, am I making a bit of sense, mate? Absolutely. Yeah, totally. Like I said, you need to get yourself on autopilot [clears throat] um so that your hippocampus starts to stimulate to then push the cortisol out the brain and then just keep doing it, keep doing it, keep doing it until one day you wake up and you don't have any cortisol in your brain at all. and your hippocampus is fully stimulated and like I said that's when you that's when it will start to stimulate your pineal gland which will allow intuition to flow and then you'll really know what to do cuz life will then give you a mission. Everybody's got one but what like I said what I would like is if what if what I've said has resonated with anybody get in contact with you and then you can put them in contact with me and let's do this. >> Absolutely. Absolutely. And um friends out there, if you got any questions for to for Satoshi or for me, put them in the chat. Let us know. Is this making sense? Because we need feedback from you. You know, it it you know, you might say, I kind of get some of it, but it's And then we can do another show. >> Yeah. >> And um you know, >> the most important thing is to remember you're massively loved. I love you. Satoshi loves you. We got a whole crowd of YouTube. They they fucking love they love they might not never have met you, but they love you. You are a valid valid person on this planet. You are life. You're the embodiment of the universe. And don't ever forget that if you were gone tomorrow, shit, you'd be so missed. You have no idea. You know, I was watching the Hulk Hogan program on on Netflix recently and Jesus, hundreds of thousands of people came for his memorial service. I don't think he realize that while he was alive. I think he was always struggling for, oh, I need to be the Hulk. I need to be in the ring. I need to be He's like, whoa, dude. You've affected all these people. All these people came to say you you were such a good guy >> and yet you couldn't even realize it yourself. So [sighs and gasps] you know what what people need to remember is that when you were born, God granted you dominion over everything. And what this got to do is they are trying to take away your inaliable God-given rights. So let's do something about it. >> Absolutely. Satoshi, stay on the line, brother. Thank you so much. All right. [music] >> Things that are not real. And I really [music and singing] want us to be real with love. Love that [music and singing] last mess.