The Year of the Mirror! (From The Hidden Files)

hey Tony guys is here car Chronicles let the Ultima get in front of me I I just I'm still just flabbergasted I'm dumbfounded and met a total loss of words of why people who drive Altimas and drive Maximus drive so fast I'm guessing this Ultima Nissan Altima Nissan Maxima is like your first Lamborghini or something but I used to have one but I have both on Maxima and awesome but I just do not remember driving that fast so y'all forgive me um my eyes on the road my wife bought me this you know little vent clip where I could clip my phone on here and so I I can only look at you at the red lights like I'm at right now and I just dropped off my oldest son and he's in the engineering contest today bridge building got to see how much weight the bridge could hold at the University um is where it's held and now I'm driving to my youngest son soccer game and I'll be there probably the whole game maybe and then have to come back and get my oldest son from his contest and then have to take him to soccer to his soccer game after that and so this is what we do um y'all know for the parents y'all know for those of you who have to step in sometimes helping out with your nieces and nephews or what have you grandkids y'all know as well one of the things I'm trying to do is with this here YouTube is every chance I get just kind of shoot a video and do something that's productive for me versus me uh listening to music or I was just listening to ESPN radio but you know it's not really productive so figure out come on here and talk to you and just kind of flow with the spirit that's one of the things that that's on my heart right now is as I'm doing this is is balance and so often we don't we don't hear about pallets and I've heard guys who have it's a lot of people that say there's no such thing as balance and if you say there's no such thing as balanced and there's no such thing as balance but if I take my oldest son to his event and they're not doing enough for the next two hours because they just checking in and setting up and you know just as a team but he's 15 years old and then I go to my eight-year-old game and then I come back in time for the competition for my 15 year old son and then I get my 15 year old and I take him to his soccer game and we all at his soccer game and then after his soccer game we all go home and now we home as a family I'm with my wife all day we spending time together oldest my 15 year old has a birthday party tonight like a formal party that he going that he's going to and we'll be home you know my wife and I with our eight-year-old to me that's balance I got time with my wife I got time with my kids I was at their events they got time to you know relax and do what they have to do to me that's balance and so what we have to be intentional about is defining our lives Define your life Define your boundaries set your schedule and hold on to that because what I call balance someone else may call chaos but the beauty about words is that humans made the words so you just this human as the people who made up the words so you get just as much right to define the word for your life and that's why I refuse to let people tell me there's no such thing as balance even if I have to go out of town and I got to miss something I'm not gonna say I'm imbalanced because in this going out of town to do this I'm building business I'm making money and then when I come back I'm back with my wife and my kids that's bounds so I want you to understand that foreign we gotta take a little rail break on the car Chronicles and so when you start to Define your life now you take control now you have the agency over your life instead of letting people tell you hey this is life and some of the people that you know that I've seen that say oh there's no such thing as balance I don't envy their life I might not see kids I might not see a spouse or I may see those things but then I see an out of shape body or I see just overworked and stressed out like just giving too much to one thing and a lot of times we we get to this place to where especially as men and then some women are falling trapped to this of just overworking just doing too much like this year I'm actually trying to work like I'm I opened up my sessions to make me work so that that lets me know I'm working at least three four hours a day because you know I got to the point where I was working one hour a day and I had a good time working one hour a day but then I realized you know your body's starting to go down your mind start to go down you got to stay active you got to stay active you got to get up got to be moving you got to occupy you gotta got a little life you got to stay busy so this year I'm actually working I'm working probably five six hours a day right now Monday through Friday and then on the weekends I work an hour a day Saturday hours Sunday when I'm um filming and then Jesus didn't rest on the Sabbath I serve Jesus so for me I do the work of the Lord on the Sabbath and whether you call that Saturday or Sunday I'm doing the work of the Lord on both days ministering to people helping other people helping guide other people so I'm doing the work of the Lord so when Jesus went to you know say that sheep or whoever you went to save and they was like oh you weren't gonna save me like so you mean tell me I'm just supposed to let somebody die today because it's the Sabbath supposed to tell me I'm supposed to just let somebody suffer like I'm not supposed to say my father owned a Sabbath it's like the Savage the Sabbath because you need to rest you know I'm doing the work of Lord I'm doing work a lot you doing other man work you doing man work the side of giving you a rest from doing man's work all week so you can rest when you're doing the work of the Lord you got to work you got to work because tomorrow ain't promised tomorrow I promise and so as I follow what Jesus say don't follow what all what the Pope's saying what the pastor say and and what my friends say what a history books say I follow what Jesus said man say Lord let me bury my father before I before I pick up my cross you know before I come with you now Jesus said listen let your Let the dead bury the dead and you come with me now that was metaphorical some say meaning let the non-believers take care of the non-believers and you come on with me but I look at it like we have to occupy we have to occupy and we have to Define Our Lives because let me tell you something I need you I need you to understand something a lot of times people don't want to understand this but what I need you to understand is that nobody knows what they're talking about including myself I'm you think I'm a guru you think I know it all no I just took a step and the step worked so I give you the step I ain't got they ain't got the map to the end I don't know how to mount to the Rival point there is no arrival there is no finishing you got to occupy until the Lord return you got to work and what I mean is we have to Define Our Lives we have to Define Our Lives because there are quote-unquote quote unquote gurus I seen I seen a guy the other day he was he was making fun of a video where one of the wanted to quote unquote Guru said that four hundred thousand dollars a year ain't no money that that ain't nothing that that he can't live off no four hundred thousand dollars a year and it's crazy how we get to a certain point and then we pee on people head and call it rain and I try to be mindful of that to say hey okay and I try to get my kids and stuff to understand that too like listen play what listen just cause we might be at this space and this is what a lot of people get wrong for me you know people who dealing in their insecurities they think when I be talking about certain I'll be bragging but I just be talking sometimes the truth is the truth like if you take it as bragging then that mean you gotta adjust your ears and what you hearing because I don't I don't show off of flying nothing because because please believe me if I wanted to it'll look totally different it'll look totally different I could try to flaunt and show off people make up Lifestyles for the internet that they don't even have I literally you literally go to the dealership and do a test drive in the car all you got to give them is your license give them your license they gonna put a tag on there and you can test drive that car the test drive that car and you could have like the the car salesman your homeboy if you're a woman you act like he your spouse and you could flick up in the car and post it online and people think that's your car that you just bought that car and they have they never have to see that car again and they're gonna assume that that's your car that you drive people naive we naive we believe what we see I don't believe none of what I see I don't believe another one I see but see this when I'm mindful of is and I try to tell my kids this too every dollar count every dollar is a dollar like everything count my son got a letter from a division two School in soccer my 15 year old he was like well it don't really mean much because such and such got one too so for one it do mean something because this is a college that could give you money this division two College that's where I went division two I was on a full scholarship because they put money together between academics Pell Grant and football but I'm like I went division too like that's something like it's multiple levels up under division too and I'm like you're an attempt grade the fact that a coach know your name and he's sending you this letter this coach don't he might not want to coach detour his whole life he may want to coach D1 this right here matter because from the 10th grade on you at least know you have the interest of college coaches and you're going to be able to get a college scholarship it's like oh it's not really it's not really nothing don't really mean a lot because uh somebody else got one too I'm like your friend line and if he did get one he told my oh he said was an offer and I'm like you guys have some show it all for them and here go the thing we are not grateful and we compare ourselves We compare ourselves so much and we're not grateful and I was coaching an anonymous you know but y'all sometime y'all hear y'all story but you gotta remember you anonymous because don't nobody know you saying your personal last name I would coach and I think a 24 year old God bless her soul and I want y'all to hear this and I want y'all to understand where we at in our life where we at in our world and that's why I'm big about this our coaching a 24 year old who make 90 000 a year and she feels unsuccessful she feels that she's not doing enough she made 90 000 a year working for a tech company something that I think she learned and picked up along the way I don't even think she went to college for it like she's not like highly trained in it but she doing the job she's making 90 000 a year 24 years old she want to make six figures by 25 and she trying to figure out how she could make that other ten thousand dollars because you know that's a goal but what we have to do is and what I told her I'm like you're successful I'm like you're in like the top 10 percent of earners in America top 15 top 20 percent I'm like you success I said 24 I was making twenty thousand dollars a year as a husband and a father like you 24 with no kids with no man you ain't got to worry about no bills nobody else you ain't gonna take care of nobody he ain't gonna take care of nobody you making 90k and look here you blessed and this is what we have to realize we have to come to a place where we can be more grateful so what I want you to do is as you live in your life as you live in your life every day go through a gratitude exercise and you can create your own but for me I thank God for everything you know I thank God for everything I thank God and I just go down the list and when you do this you start to realize how blessed you are in this very moment Lord I Thank you for vision so that I could drive Lord I Thank you for my sound so that I could hear I thank you for the breath in my body Lord I thank you for this hand right here that's sitting on this gear shift Lord I Thank you for Abel limbs Lord I Thank you for this cell phone film this video I thank you for data on my phone because I got a map going at the same time I'm filming this video I thank you for my wife Lord I Thank you for my kids Lord I Thank you for this car Lord I Thank you for my other car Lord thank you for that other car Lord I thank you for that other Carlo I thank you for that other color I thank you that I was able to get my mama a car Lord I think I was able to get my dad in the car Lord I think I was able to get my sister a car Lord I think y'all got my barber car Lord I thank you I got my best friend a car Lord I Thank you that I'm employed I thank you for my businesses Lord I Thank you for my office I thank you for the ceiling I thank you for these floors I thank you for this air conditioning Lord I thank you for that breath I just took see when I was doing that some people all right Tony we get it you got to use a Prada brand my goodness oh my God y'all if Rosa just kill speak y'all a little y'all lose you the Lord the brand oh my goodness some people who are so negative and so bitter will go into that space well go into that space and just be just be upset just to be upset and it's like really but even right there and I could have kept going I could have kept going Lord thank you for these shoes on my feet Lord thank you foreign bracelet like listen we take our blessings for granted we take blessings for granted and that's our problem is we have to be more intentional about life we got to be more intentional about life we have to realize and understand dad we have to take time to be grateful to be thankful to say Lord I Thank you and then we have to occupy we got to make sure that we're working that we're working in our purpose we're working in our gifts we're using the gifts and the skills that God has given us even if it's only for one person even if you giving it to one person even if you create something you got one client don't give up on it and see the way the adversary worked but the way life worked when you have momentum momentum creates momentum heard a guy say that 10 one time movie director said that to him one time we was we was on the road doing a documentary I was producing he said momentum creates momentum anytime I see somebody start working in their gifts working in their purpose they get a raise on their job they get a promotion on their job or they get a new job or they get a better job and they take them away from their gifts and their purpose and the adversary don't want don't want to see you with time Freedom the adversary don't want to see you win in your gifts and win and your purpose the adversary wants you to be a slave to a job the adversary wants you to be a slave to a job a slave on a job that's what the adversary want and a lot of times we don't realize that but there's always some type of elevation some type of something that you know takes us to that next level perceivably but it might be in a different direction and we just don't realize what this is about and I want you to be mine for that mindful of that and be very spiritually Discerning of this and make sure that you praying and that you're looking to see okay asking Lord is this of you or is this a distraction a lot of women getting their purpose and when they get in their purpose they living their life and why they're in their purpose they meet a man and the next thing you know they focus on this man they chasing behind this man then the arguments start to happen then the crying starts to happen then the sleepless nights start to happen missing meals missing workouts and she was just getting Traction in her business she just had to hit 10 clients she just had to hit 10 clients she was starting to go she she was praying every day she was reading her Bible every day and then she meet this man and he's an answer to prayers but the next thing you know she's on her back she's on her back in sin when God blessed her with a business bless her with a promotion bless her with a job bless her with opportunity blessed her and now she on her back she on her back up under a man who claims that he knows God and he loves God and now she feels guilty now she feels guilty because she's like hold on God gave me God got me here and now I don't let this man talk me into sin and talk me out of my walk with the Lord and then a prayer she can receive forgiveness but she living in guilt the sin has a feeling guilty so even though God never forgave her even though God don't forgave her she living in guilt so her mind won't even let her believe and she can't receive blessings that God has for because she's living in guilt because of what she did not not recalling that the Bible says that got a forgive you throw your sins into the sea of forgetfulness throw them as far as from the East to the West remember them no more she forgot all about that forgot that whole scripture because she live in guilt written because she'd have fell into this scene and I see that so much so much we be doing good we'd be making moves and then boom he'll go a distraction here goes something and I'm gonna tell you something I'm gonna tell you something what you have to realize and understand is that Spirits are real and you got a Holy Spirit and then you have evil spirits you have demonic spirits God created Good and Evil it brings balance to the world it also gives you the opportunity to choose you get to choose between Good and Evil and we'll never be perfect like my wife made me a little egg witch today it's like the freezer Jimmy Dean I'm about to go to McDonald's and get my sausage biscuit now see listen I can come on here and pretend with you that all I do is eat kale and spinach and some of y'all hate McDonald's some of y'all is poison but guess what you're not eating McDonald's but you gossiping in your back bite you're not eating McDonald's but you playing with dildos you not eat McDonald's but you're in fornication you're not eating McDonald's but you use profanity mixing the sacred with the profane so see the thing about it is we all make bad choices you just got to ask what the choice is going to cause I'm gonna eat McDonald's every day I just eat McDonald's when I'm if I'm on the run and I gotta eat it and I pray over it and I just read in in Timothy it said it said that there's gonna come a time where I think I'm in Timothy it said people will tell you like leaders and speakers and like teachers well religious teachers will be telling you not to eat certain foods and then it says but God has blessed all food and that if you basically thank God and understand that God has blessed this food then you could eat whatever food you want to eat and I say man so at this in this new testament isn't say you can't eat pork you can't eat meat you can't eat a certain seed a certain fruit they say every kind of food that is food that we eat God has blessed it I'm like um but what you have to do is have moderation so if you just eating salty ham all day every day you're gonna have some issues frying your food all day every day you're gonna have some issues but a piece of fried chicken a week ain't gonna kill you especially if you're working out you working out you drinking water so we have to have moderation we have to have balance we have to use wisdom but what we do as humans is we go we be gung-ho in one area and then be sloppy in other areas just completely sloppy like just completely out of whack you'd be better off eating pork than being in fornication I'ma guarantee you that I'ma guarantee you that you'd be better off eating meat if you don't eat meat then being in fornication I'ma guarantee you that because there's people living past the age of 100 who eat me and I talked to a vegan coach I wanted to learn I want to learn about that stuff and learn about it but it's not something that I can do it's something that I say hey I may want to be vegan for a week a month or I may want to be vegan for a meal a day but it's not something that I'ma just make like a religion and if I'm hungry I'm gonna eat and I'm gonna pray over it and then if I need to go get on the treadmill for an hour later I'm gonna do it if I need to drink me a gallon of water I'm gonna do it but what I'm gonna do in my life is find balance have moderation walk with the Lord what I'm getting one of these iced coffees but see this is the thing what I try to do McDonald's oh yes can I have a sausage biscuit and a medium ice what kind of iced coffee do you have you have like the caramel macchiato I'm sorry say that one more time do you have like an iced caramel macchiato let me have that Medium all right and um the sausage biscuit that'll be all see they got these young people up here they do two things at one time so he'll say let me help you but then he turned and he got to take the money from the person at the window so then they have you so then you got to repeat your order twice and it's like McDonald's y'all ain't thinking about a better a better um clan in that and uh but it's like every time I go to McDonald's you have to order twice because he'd take so how you how he would just 504 he said 504 to me he take my card why are you saying that to me somebody in his ear placed in the order and so then when I get my car back now he got they got to replace their order so I'm gonna stop saying my order twice but listen this is what I try to show you I want you to understand we all flawed and we all living life and we all live in a real life and what I mean by that is what are your skeletons so I can't judge you I can't judge your skeletons and you can't judge my skeletons and what I say about skeletons is what I was talking about on the video yesterday I can't I don't eat healthy thank you thank you I don't eat healthy every meal uh yeah could I have a grape jelly as well I don't eat healthy every meal but what I don't do me not eating God bless you thank you all right but what I don't do I'm willing I consider that consequence okay Tony is without a little grease on it it got a little sodium on it or got some butter on there so I consider that consequence okay so what you need to do I'm out of the drink with some a bunch of water today I'm gonna have to get on that treadmill today incline walk 30 45 or hour uh work that out just a little cheat meal reset but I'm being realistic because the reason why I believe in being realistic is because I see people who go gung-ho in one area and they become you can't even relate to them you can't even relate to them because you you're out hanging with them they can't eat nothing they can't eat nothing so what you so you want us to pull over the side of the road so you can pluck up your some of this hill grass and uh with you just gonna eat on you some grass like the cows because I understand you know you like the diet of the cow so you wanna you wanna go get some of this grass for you because where we at right now we ain't got nothing you don't eat McDonald's McDonald's got a salad yeah I know it might not be the best romaine lettuce you can ever had but McDonald got a salad but see some people go so gung-ho in one area that is out of it's out of pride and that's why I say we have to check ourselves we got to check our pride a lot of times we're doing things to feel special a lot of times we're doing things without real knowledge without real understanding or we doing things just to feel special it becomes our claim to fame and we start to idolize things in our life we will idolize a diet oh I'm a vegan oh I'm a vegetarian oh I'm a pescatarian and that becomes a claim to fame when we never even have to say that we like I could be a vegan and just go order something and never say I'm a vegan and a person just think I'm eating a salad don't even know but a lot of times what we do is we say it and we we put it out there oh I'm a virgin a lot of versions it's a shame to say that but some making their claim to fame some make it their identity and they start it becomes an idol and they start to worship it and then when they get married and they lose their virginity their virginity they feel useless they feel worthless they feel like their life is over because who am I now you a person you got a child but you was idolizing virginity instead of hoping and waiting on the day that you could be married and lose it because we should not have anything as an idol and so this is what I mean by evaluating ourselves and doing what we need to do and the reason why I tell y'all hey I struggle with looking at a woman booty the reason why I tell you that and it discourages some women oh my goodness Tony will look at a woman booty what hope do we have and it's like do you look at a man if a man got on Gray sweatpants ain't got a print is you not gonna see that if a man is six foot five with chiseled jawline and arms and chest are you not gonna see that if a man looked like the man you have drawn in your in your brain that you're not gonna see that I'm a human like you a human I ain't say I go talk to the lady ain't say I sit in vision and lust out to the lady and picture us sleeping together ain't say that I go get a phone number I ain't say that I go home and tell my wife oh I looked at another woman Buddha today ha ha you need to do some squats so your butt is the only one I want to look at I ain't say I do that but I share that with you because pastors don't often share that with you because men who teach relationships don't often share that with you but it's guys out here so all of us got something so me imma eat bad sometimes like this McDonald's I'm gonna tie at the frame and I'ma look at me a booty sometime and that's what my prayers go Lord help me to stay on the health track keep working not keep eating right and Lord help me to guard my eyes Lord help me to keep my eyes up look there go my wife I think that's my wife look closer y'all that my wife help me to keep my eyes up and I'm gonna tell you because I'm married or I lust out of my wife all day she last night I was baby listen you're gonna have to get out of here because you're making me lust I said listen you got to put a robe on top of them leggings you got on because you're making me lust now I was standing talking to her today she had on a little night outfit then you know like the little shorts and the shirt and I was like this this ain't too um you ain't got too much leg out for the boys like they her son they don't think like that but I'm thinking like that because this thing I'm lusting wow but that's my wife right so while she's standing there talking to me tell him showing me the map showing me the direction where I got to drop off our oldest son I'm standing there just jiggling no booty the whole time I'm squeezing booty I'm squeezing booty I'm lifting booty I'm bouncing the booty cheek just the whole time I'm like this the whole time she talking now and that's how I do my wife so that's what I do because I know that I'm a luster so I've made my wife the object of My Affection my affection goes to her and God is reminding me you live with a woman you could hug on this woman kiss on this woman rub on this woman it don't do you no good to look at a woman in public because you can't do nothing with her so you ain't doing nothing but defile in your spirit so love your woman hug on your woman rub on your woman everything with your woman and Lord give me that wisdom because I pray that prayer and that's what I want you to understand is we got to be working on us we got to be doing what we need to do we have to be focused on our growth and our lives and that's why I'm transparent with you so that you don't look at me as a perfect bill of health so that you know oh Tony is a man Tony struggle with lust Tony struggle with eating right oh man I struggle with eating right man I just had some McDonald's now you bout to make me go get a big Mike I didn't have McDonald's in a year and so yeah Lord forgiven for being a hindrance to my brother and my sisters but I had to get to him a spirit he didn't make dollars in him and I'm convicted about that I don't want to eat that I don't want to eat no fast food but hey on the run and I say you know what that's right this ain't no worse than that process freezer food that my wife heated up for me so I'm eating the same thing regardless so I want you to understand that we have to have that introspection of evaluating ourselves and where we've fallen short and what we doing wrong and what we need to do better and we got to be real with ourselves we got to be real with our friends and family and we got to stop trying to paint that we perfect but yet instead be pursuing Perfection knowing that we're not perfect and that's going to help us hey did Tony Jackson's God bless you uh make sure you join us if you have not yet in the group coaching if you don't have a life coach or you need additional you need a group of like-minded people I'm gonna put the link in the description so it's called the growth club and we're gonna meet monthly and we're going to have bonus meetings I'm gonna hire from within what I mean is if we have a CPA if we have a tax preparer if we have an accountant if we have a brand strategist a marketing person if we have an editor or some type of business owner will the topics I want to do if we have somebody in the group that can teach that topic for 30 minutes and then take questions we're going to support each other like that in the group so this is going to be worth far more than the forty seven dollars that you pay in each month for this group coaching experience and I'm putting the link in the description and I want to build it I want to build it to where we have a tribe of people that's making moves that that way we can have chapters in different cities that way we can have different Retreats going on I have my coaches that are certified coaches through me and also in my life coach Mastermind those coaches they may lead their own Retreats they may lead their own chapters in their city or in their region and they will also teach classes but that's because they have put in the work they've gotten certified they in the Mastermind they've made big investments from the sacrifices they've made in their life to get their finances to that point and so it's it's steps you can't just jump off the porch and say Tony I want to lead a group and you ain't even got your certification yet because you have not budgeted your money or saved your money or worked on your personality to be able to get a job and keep a job you got to take those steps first to where you can get a job get a raise add a stream of income put up a savings take the life coach certification get it amounts to mind because these are steps these things that it's a byproduct that money is a byproduct of your sacrifice the money you make it's a byproduct of your diligence of your dedication of your attitude of your mindset a lot of people say oh I'm a good person oh I'm this and that I'm this that but I'm broken I'm out of my job and I'm this and that and just by the tone of the email woe is me I'm mad at you cause you stepped on my toes I'm able to look at and say see it's that mindset right there it's that mindset right there that's limiting you that's hindering you so hey God bless y'all I see a car behind me that my wife used to have that I got to get back for got to get that bike for God bless you we'll talk soon