Salute to the Psychonauts: Story About Facing Our Fears, Crossing Into the Realm of Salvia Divinorum
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The speaker shares a deeply personal journey of confronting intense fear and anxiety, specifically regarding their experience with Salvia divinorum, a powerful plant-based hallucinogen often referred to as "Salvia deora" in the transcript. Their initial encounter with the substance was so terrifying that it felt like being scared out of their soul, causing them to abruptly stop their journey mid-experience because they were crumbling into a metaphorical black hole. This overwhelming reaction forced a moment of intense self-reflection, leading the speaker to realize that fear acts as a significant barrier to exploring new realms of consciousness and understanding one's own limits.
Driven by the need to understand why they feared an experience they willingly chose, the speaker dedicated themselves to overcoming these psychological hurdles through rigorous work and exploration. They took a full month off from their contracting job to complete all pending projects without taking on any new ones, effectively clearing their schedule to focus entirely on this internal process. For the following year, they explored Salvia every single day while only accepting minimal professional work, continuing this intense practice for two more years before maintaining a connection with the substance for a decade. This hardcore psychonaut journey was not merely about drug use but served as a serious upgrade to their mental processing system, allowing them to face deep-seated fears and understand what it means to be human within a matter-based existence.
The ultimate conclusion of this transformative period was finding one's true place in life and gaining the clarity necessary to pursue their current path with confidence. The speaker emphasizes that facing such profound fear is essential for personal growth, as it strips away illusions and forces a confrontation with the raw reality of one's psyche. By pushing through the initial terror and continuing to explore despite the physical and mental challenges, they achieved a level of self-awareness that allowed them to move forward without being paralyzed by anxiety. This story serves as a salute to psychonauts who dare to cross into unknown realms to upgrade their consciousness and find meaning in their lives.
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Low guard. I struggle with fear,
anxiety, etc. It prevents me from
entering that realm as I get concerned.
It could make things worse.
Yeah, it's I can tell you that the
reason I explored Salvia deora because
it scared the [ __ ] Jesus out of me.
Jesus out of me. I had never been scared
on that level. The first time that I
cross into the realm uh ever in my life
and I had to explore it because
uh fear is the mind killer and I had to
understand why I feared a plant, why I
feared an experience that I willingly
participate in it. Right?
It took a lot of work. By the way, the
first time I crossed over into the
Salvia realm, like literally
I I had to stop the journey as fast as I
could because I was crumbling into a
black hole. My body was becoming
flat. And I put my hand on a coffee
table, put my hand on a sofa, stood up,
yelled, but it bottom of my [ __ ]
stomach yelled it no.
And the journey stopped because Salvia
deor understood that I wasn't ready for
where I was about to go, where I went
really. And I stood there, I sweated
like mad and I fell down on the ground
and laughed my ass off for 10 minutes
straight because I couldn't believe what
had happened.
I realized I had to explore the realm.
So I finished all the project because at
the time most of my life I worked as a
contractor. I took a month to finish off
all the contracts I had taken on.
[ __ ] worked my ass off in a month. I
finished off everything. Didn't take on
any new projects. And for the next few
years, for the next year, I explo
explored Salvio deorum every [ __ ] day
for a full year, took on a very tiny
amount of projects for the next couple
of years and continue to explore Salvia
deor for the next two years and
continued with Salvio deor for the next
10 years. Okay. Uh pretty intensely. uh
hardcore psychonaut journey to be able
to have a serious upgrade to the
processing system and face my fears and
understand what it means to be human to
be alive to occupy this matter based
existence and find my place in life to
be able to do what I'm doing okay
extremely important
extremely important. Salute to the
psychonauts.