Video summary
About a month ago, the creator reached a significant milestone of one million YouTube subscribers, celebrating with friends and family while planning a special event. However, the very next day, he suffered a stroke that has profoundly altered his life. The incident occurred during a Jiu-Jitsu session where he tore vessels in his neck, causing bleeding at the back of his skull rather than affecting just one side of the body as is common with strokes. This unique injury resulted in severe issues with balance, coordination, vision, and cognitive clarity, leaving him struggling to speak clearly and use his hands effectively.
The experience was terrifying, particularly because he initially dismissed the symptoms as a migraine or panic attack due to a habit of downplaying his health concerns. He waited too long to seek medical help because those around him were unaware that something serious was happening, which delayed critical treatment. Currently, he is under strict supervision and can only take short, monitored walks of about five minutes before needing rest. His recovery involves extensive physical, speech, and occupational therapy, and he has had to learn the difficult reality that he now requires constant assistance from others for daily tasks, a shift that feels like becoming a toddler again.
To aid his rehabilitation, the creator is focusing on learning new skills to rebuild neural pathways, specifically by knitting a complex cardigan despite never having done so before. He emphasizes the importance of listening to audiobooks and keeping his hands busy to facilitate healing while adhering strictly to doctor's orders, such as not lifting anything over five pounds. Although he does not know when or if he will return to making videos for YouTube, he remains committed to his recovery process and is grateful simply for having survived the ordeal.
Looking toward the future, he plans to share updates through his community tab, Patreon page, and Instagram rather than returning immediately to video content. He expresses deep gratitude for his survival and hopes that his recovery might accelerate beyond expectations, potentially allowing him to return to creating content soon. Until then, he encourages his audience to take care of themselves and acknowledges the uncertainty ahead with a mix of humility and determination, ending his message with love and appreciation for his supporters who have followed his journey.
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about a month ago I hit this like major
Milestone on YouTube of a million
subscribers which was like cool and I
called my friends and family and was
like hey guys this is awesome and I'm so
grateful to my audience and um was
trying to plan to do something with you
guys to celebrate and then the next day
I had a
stroke that still feels feels so weird
to
say and when I like try to sit with that
reality it still feels
weird um I'm alive which is super cool
uh it did
affect a number of different parts of my
body
um long story short I it happened in
Jiu-Jitsu it was like a super freak
accident um that apparently I like tore
vessels and arteries in my neck and that
caused a stroke at the back of my
skull so it didn't affect like one side
of my body like you normally think of
when you hear a stroke it affected
like uh balance and coordination um
Vision definitely Clarity of like
thinking speaking um I have a hard time
using my hand
it's just like a bunch of weird stuff
like I'll stutter a lot
um just a it's a lot of different little
things and there's still a risk until
the vessels heal in a couple months that
it could
reoccur so I am not allowed to do
anything um I'm allowed to go for short
supervised walks where I can like I mean
I'm talking like 5 minutes and I'm done
um like the world is spinning this was a
really terrifying thing to go through
and I think that that is
still setting in I actually need help um
I've made videos in the past being like
you know asking for help is hard and
like it is right but now I am at a place
where I
can't exist really without the help of
other
people
um and I'm working on like just
embracing that and letting people take
care of me and love me and like bring me
food and take me outside like a toddler
I've got a lot of physical therapy and
speech therapy and occupational therapy
this is hard to to go through um but I
know I
will come out the other side don't
wait um Strokes are really
scary and uh when I had it I didn't know
what was happening the people around me
had no idea so no one called an
ambulance or brought me to the hospital
or anything I just went home um my
I thought I'm being over traumatic you
know nothing like that was a crazy awful
experience and I feel all wrong but I'm
I'm probably it's probably just a
migraine you know maybe it was just a
panic attack uh even though didn't feel
like that I have this habit of feeling
like maybe I'm making a big deal out of
nothing all of the
time and so I waited and that was a bad
thing I waited longer than I should have
if you think something is
happening
please love yourself enough to go to the
hospital and not wait on a lighter note
a big part of healing from Strokes is
learning new
things and like I said like keeping your
uh my hands got impacted and so learning
to do things with my hands like helps
rebuild those neural pens mathways um so
I wanted to show you guys something I
made because as I've been able to like
throughout the day I've got a little
spot over here on the couch that I've
set up where I will sit and um my friend
sent me things to learn to knit because
I've never knit before and I've been
crocheting a ton because I never learned
to follow patterns and so I made
this check it out guys it's like the
whole the whole sweater or
cardigan and I made it took a very long
time but I'm very proud of
it um so I've been keeping myself busy
keeping my hands busy at least listening
to audio books I don't know when I will
be back to YouTube or making videos and
honestly I don't know what that will
look like there's a lot of question
marks about the future
I'm really grateful to have survived
this I am being very diligent to follow
all of my doctor's orders to not do
anything to not lift anything over like
five pounds um to be supervised if I'm
walking like all of that I'm very
committed to this going through this
recovery the best that I
can and focusing my energy on that
and with that being said I'm gonna go
lay down with my puppy dog
um thank you so much for listening I
hope to give you more updates soon I
imagine the easiest place for me to put
any kind of update is going to be the
community tab here um my patreon page
and my
Instagram uh so if you want to follow
along any of those
that's probably where future short-term
updates will be and hey who knows maybe
magically my recovery will accelerate
far beyond anyone's wildest dreams and
I'll be able to be back in front of a a
camera and making content and working
soon but we'll
see uh thank you again for listening I
love you guys I'm thinking about you so
grateful to be here and I will see you
guys in the next video whenever that is
please take care of yourselves until
then bye guys