Episode 60: Are We Still Speaking the Same Language? | Truth, Words & the Catholic Mind
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In this episode of "From the Rooftop," hosts Mancenior Patrick Winslow and Father Matthew Calf explore the profound implications of language on human thought and communication, moving beyond simple vocabulary to examine how words shape our reality. They begin by contrasting Western languages, which they describe as having a mathematical or algebraic precision, with Eastern languages that are more spoken and fluid, where written forms often follow oral traditions rather than leading them. The hosts discuss how learning new languages can introduce entirely new distinctions and concepts, expanding one's intellectual horizon. They highlight the importance of word choice in conveying specific nuances, noting that even the sound of a word can carry an emotional or intuitive weight regarding affirmation or negation, a phenomenon supported by neurological studies suggesting certain sounds are universally associated with positive or negative meanings regardless of the listener's knowledge of the language.
The conversation deepens as the hosts address the common problem of miscommunication in society, where people assume they share a common understanding of terms like "life" when their definitions may differ drastically based on personal or cultural contexts. They argue that true communication requires more than just exchanging sound vibrations; it demands an active effort to bridge the gap between individual experiences and universal concepts. This leads to a discussion on the nature of receptivity, referencing St. Thomas Aquinas's idea that what is received depends on the mode of the receiver. The hosts reflect on how we often speak past one another because we are not fully open to receiving the other person's perspective, instead trying merely to impart our own views. They contrast this with the experience of encountering someone with a commanding presence or authority, such as Jesus in the Gospels, who can so captivate an audience that self-consciousness fades and genuine communion occurs.
Finally, the dialogue turns inward to the challenge of authenticity within the roles we play in life, particularly for priests who live public lives while maintaining private interiors. The hosts warn against the danger of becoming stuck in a static role that no longer aligns with one's internal growth, which can lead to a sense of inauthenticity or acting merely for others' expectations. They suggest that self-knowledge comes not from introspection alone but from observing one's reactions and actions over time, asking whether we would be friends with the person we have become through our deeds. The episode concludes with a lighthearted exchange about seasonal changes and dietary habits, reinforcing the theme that while language and roles are essential tools for living in society, they must remain flexible and aligned with the evolving truth of who we are to maintain genuine connection and integrity.
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It's [music] been a long, long day. I
got a lot to say. It feels like I'm
carrying a [music] two-tonon weight. I
go to see your friends.
[music] Hello, I'm Mancenior Patrick
Winslow
>> and I am Father Matthew Calf
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>> where we look out upon the world around
us from the rooftop of the church and
share with you what we see. makes
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me want to scream
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>> Well, hi there.
>> Hello. Good to see you.
>> Likewise. [music]
Likewise. Well, at least uh we were able
to connect within a week and a half's
time this time.
>> Yeah, I think we're rather responsible.
>> Yeah. You know, the other day I was um
noting
I don't know if it was in my head or if
it was something around me, the fall
spices in the air. And I think maybe
somebody had a refreshener or something.
But then it occurred to me, we're in
September now.
>> So, it's time
uh it's time to transition to a new
season. Although I was um rudely
informed by my Alexa at home
that the weather for most of this week
was going to be high of 97 which would
feel like 105.
So I'm not really feeling the fall vibe
yet.
>> Yeah.
>> Um although there were hints of
something that was in the air. Although
my mother keeps telling me that there's
commercials for Christmas on whatever
she was watching. U you know things
about you know how many more days you
have things of that nature. So it's
getting a little out of control.
Although I am fine with diving into a
season when you're ready to dive out of
the old one.
>> Yeah, I agree with that. I I I think
that for for us here at the seminary,
you know, you you sort of make a
transition when it's still summertime
because we begin
>> Yeah.
>> July,
>> your fall schedule begins in the fall
schedule and then just feels like it
drags on the dog days. We have this heat
wave. It's [snorts]
>> like, okay, we've been in we've been in
school now for a month already.
>> Brutal.
>> So, anyway, but I get you. I am ready
for the transition.
>> I'm ready for the transition. So I don't
know, you know, when you make it over
there at the seminary when you start
putting in a few a few indicators, but I
imagine the sisters take care of that a
little bit.
>> Yeah, as far as the food goes, they do.
I mean, we begin to transition from
summer food to, you know, things that
are a bit more brazy and and uh um long
slow cooking, you know, which you just
don't want to do in the summertime, but
>> Oh, yeah. I know. And roasting, you
know,
>> roasting. Absolutely. roasting
vegetables, which is where the world's
set of flavors come from.
>> You're still on that kick.
>> All vegetation. That's where flavor.
>> Yeah. Yeah. Well, we're not really
starting with anything profound today.
[laughter]
>> Norally, this is the stuff we talk about
before we go, but uh
>> we're just flipping flipping it on its
head today.
>> Yes. Clearly, clearly that's what we're
doing. Um,
let's see if there's something that's
been on my mind. Uh, language.
>> Language has been on my mind.
>> Um,
>> yeah. You mentioned last time we had a
podcast that whether or not you were
talking about throwing out some kind of
natural hope and the accomplishment of
>> an attempt to accomplish something on a
natural level to give yourself a little
bit of traction.
>> Yeah. as a spur obviously to the greater
hopes that we have relative to to
supernatural hope. Um,
and you mentioned something in there
about language like if you want to learn
a language. So, it stuck in my head as I
wonder if he's trying to learn a
language.
>> I won't tell.
>> Okay. But that said,
um
you know, some of the languages that
I've been uh exploring just a little bit
to kind of get a feel about been
eastern. Um and they're so different
than western language.
You know, the western language is almost
mathematical.
>> There's a type of mathematical precision
and type of calculation.
And I didn't even realize like for
example the Spanish how
how western even that is because I often
would think about maybe German or
English as being
hyper precise and technical and logical.
Well, in so far as languages are that
um but but even something like Spanish
comes off as being rather algebraic and
mathematical
in comparison to just some of these
languages which are uh so spoken
that you know the idea of the written
formulation and almost mathematical
constructs they're just kind of after
the fact you know
>> but the Well, but even more to the
point, aside from just appreciating, you
know, some of the facial differences or
even maybe some of the internal
differences and how language evolves and
develops, um, I think most people don't
really consider how important
language is and all of the implications
of language. Um,
you know, we just simply use it, right?
I mean, we we engage it. We presume it.
Um, but so often we're foiled uh in in
miscommunication or
um having certain assumptions that are
not shared or certain distinctions that
are not shared. But it's not common
because most of the concepts that we're
banting about are pretty easily commonly
shared.
>> Sure. Uh but but you've had the
experience and I've had the experience
when you're dealing with another
language, it carves out a slightly
nuanced or different concept that isn't
just it just isn't carved out in in
English.
>> Yes. And you in my experience in those
few occasions, I particularly liked that
new word because it it gave me something
a a new
reality, a new set of distinctions that
had a word for it and really appreciated
it. But all of that kind of brings to
the four that in the use of language
that we are in essence dividing up and
making distinctions between concepts. um
you know concepts of things, concepts of
actions, concepts of time, concepts of
thought and all of those concepts are
predicated on the fact that we have an
intellect that can actually make these
distinctions that we can you know um we
can abstract from the reality around us
and develop these concepts itself. But I
think most people don't ever really
think of language beyond sort of the
facial experience just beyond the face
of it just the experience of it. Have I
have I inspired any thoughts on your
end?
>> Oh for sure. I I love talking about
language. Um and you know your father I
remember he said one time in one of
those you know jiu-jitsu
>> Oh yes
>> that he puts on for leadership things
and whatever. Um I don't remember or
whatever.
He likes to think of himself as, you
know, like a ninja black belt.
>> That's right. But I I just recall him
saying something that I thought was it
stuck with me. It was quite profound and
true, but it was a simple statement
because people typically will complain
when you do get people around the table
at any institution and they will
complain to the whoever's in charge of
it. In this case, you I think you were
in charge. was at the parish and um this
particular event and people will say the
same thing which is
we have a problem of communication.
>> Yep.
>> And your father's um statement was that
it's not that you're not communicating,
you're always communicating. It's a
question of what are you communicating
>> and how well how well do you do
>> communicating? So,
I was thinking about it the other day
because,
you know, Italians, as you know, they
they they can't really speak without
gesture,
>> but the gesture sort of emphasizes the
thing that they are they're actually
speaking.
>> Yeah.
>> To the point where the gesture
oftentimes is more important than the
word. and they have such a an elaborate
uh everyone kind of knows about
Italians, a very elaborate
display of gesture. Um but and people
laugh about it and they make fun of it
and they think it's cute and beautiful
or whatever, but it's it's not that it's
not that elaborate. I mean, it's not as
elaborate as sign language, right? And
and the point that I was thinking about
is that that while they're trying to
push that word into someone by a kind of
gesture,
um it it itself is not terribly
descriptive and it it lacks the kind of
distinction that language often does,
especially as a language grows over the
course of time. M
>> the um I'm reading the the Merchant of
Venice right now, trying to fly my way
through Shakespeare's plays and um
yesterday I just I had just started
yesterday and he uses a word which is
one of the many many words that he made
up um because they're in Venice and he
speaks about someone being portly
and we just hear that word and we think
large, right? But he made it up. He made
it up on the spot there. Yeah,
>> think about a port that is receiving
someone is rather large and and and uh
round. Um he just made that into a
descriptive word which is fantastic. Uh
and he added so many words to the
English result of that
>> and as you said algebraic in so far as
it's it's always making a further
distinction adding a word to give a new
nuance etc. And so
Eric Varden, if you ever you ever read
Eric Varden, Bishop Eric Varden,
>> I think I I've read some things um from
him. Yeah,
>> he had a an article that I think I was
reading to you and Gober in the car. We
were going down to some place. Yeah. And
it was too heavy of an article to read
and I could tell Gober was not listening
after 15 seconds.
>> Um so I gave up. But the the point of
the article was that the nice thing
about learning different languages um
especially something like the easterns
um so far out of our our our our normal
mode of communication is that each one
of those words actually has a different
kind of effect on you
>> that you're trying to communicate
something uh to someone else about a
reality. Um the word choice is affecting
them to some degree. uh even even
unconsciously or emotionally. So he uses
the example of of the word um woods
woods or forest or Latin is is silva.
>> How how different silva uh hits the ear
and and and and the heart it sounds like
something sort of mysterious and and
enchanting.
Whereas, if you just have, you know, a
forest or there's lots of different
words you could you could use to to
describe it. And some of the ones he he
pulled out were were some German ones.
And of course, it just sounded like
something I never want to see. Um but
how even the asinance and the and the
structure of it the shape of a word um
yeah
>> on the recipient
>> there sort of a you know I think what
you're getting to is that sounds
have almost a natural connotation to
them.
>> Yeah. So that you could take, you know,
I mean, you could take something
beautiful like a rose and in German name
it something like Kashak and you know
[laughter]
>> your German is exquisite.
>> Thank you. Yeah,
>> it is a rose in German though.
>> Whatever. Um even say it worse though,
>> right? It's kind of like,
you know, why couldn't you just come up
with something like rose or
petal or just something that the sound
matched the reality a little better?
>> There have been studies on this on this
on this issue about
>> how um in languages
certain sounds are always chosen over
other sounds for negation or
affirmation.
So you you almost don't have to know the
other language. You whether it's a yes
or no, you can almost intuit it because
the sound will come off negating or the
sound will come off as affirming. And
it's and it's not that you know what the
words what they mean what that
particular word means. Yes or no. You
don't know the language.
>> But the sound itself re is revealing
because there's something universal to
the human experience about which sounds
lean in toward which meanings.
Especially something as strong as
negation and affirmation.
>> You think that's only in in Western
European?
>> No. No. Um in fact I think this was
McGillchrist. Uh it was either him or
another one because I'm reading I was
reading something else by another
neurosurgeon. But um it was it was part
of some of the neurological studies that
was popping up either in the Gilchrist
book or some other book that I had um
about how the brain functions. And so
uh they cited a study on on some of this
>> and and it was clear it was it was
clear. I mean it wasn't a perfect 100%
that you could always know whether
something was an affirmative or a
negative. However,
when given the two when given both which
one is affirmative and which one is
negative,
it was statistical. It was statistically
significant that people who didn't know
the language could discern based on the
sound.
>> Interesting.
>> That was affirming or negating. Yeah. So
it was it was really interesting um in
that sense. But I think uh I think that
much of our our our conversation with
culture
uh really is caught up in not having
a precise common language. I mean all
right we're all speaking English. All
right, we all live in, you know, at this
time in this place here in the United
States, you know, assuming that that's
where everyone here is living and we
have a lot in common. We can assume a
lot. However, when you're getting into
distinctions, whether they're
theological or philosophical,
um, or cultural debates
that have at their core,
um, significant
but nuance distinctions,
especially life issues. Um, and yet all
we do is repeat the same words at each
other
when in fact
they're not meaning
the same thing to the other person who's
hearing it.
>> Yeah.
>> Um, and and there are some important
distinctions and understandings that
have to kind of get to it, right? like
just saying the word life,
you know, we can, you know, scream up
and down all we want on the sacredness
of human life,
but a person
um who might be more pro-abortion
would hear life and define life
differently.
Um, and you get into a lot of the the
craziness of, well,
how do you define life? Well, clearly
it's not a bunch of cells attached to a
woman. Clearly, it's not a fetus.
Clearly, it's not that, right? So, how
do you eventually get to define life?
And then you end up with this
convoluted, very personalized definition
of what human life is. Well, that's
great. No good. that is no good for us
in society because the entire country is
not going to live according to your
definition of life. You know, we have to
come up with some language. You know, at
what point, you know, the foot
of language, right? I mean
[clears throat] ultimately what you're
doing with with the language rather than
a gesture
um or a grunt is you are attempting to
have a kind of communion with a person
not by virtue of their particular
>> universal universal.
>> Yeah.
>> So when we teach the boys about this
like I asked them if they know what the
word dog means.
>> And of course they all say yes.
And I said, "What dog are you thinking
about?" But before I asked the question,
they weren't necessarily thinking about
a particular dog. They could, but I
don't know those particular dogs. And
so, how can I use a word that you
understand and I understand even though
my experiences of dogs are different
>> different than yours? Yeah.
>> Well, breaking out of your particularity
into the universal is that is is the
glorious thing about language where
things can actually be shared
>> and the power of the intellect.
>> Absolutely.
>> I mean, and that's the thing that I was
kind of saying earlier. I mean, all of
the implications of language,
>> it kind of goes right down to the
implications of, you know, the human
soul and its intellective abilities.
>> Um,
you know, it's it's impressive. Very
impressive. But even so, as impressive
as it is, uh, it's amazing how we can
just speak past each other.
>> Absolutely. you know, and and it's and
just assume that when we're trying to
speak about something important,
something that's worth taking time to
really understand what the other person
is saying that we just assume that we
both know what the word life means.
>> Yeah. And don't you think that that's
it's in part an assumption, but it's
also
this is a matter of the will, right?
that I don't in so many of our
conversations I'm not attempting
to receive from you.
>> I'm just trying to impart something.
>> That's right.
>> Um and so to take the actual time that
would be required and the kind of
goodwill
>> to say I actually want to know what's in
your mind. And we have to unfortunately
use this very clunky process by which I
put sound vibrations in the air that can
hit your ear.
>> Yeah.
>> It's in my mind into your mind. It's
it's a very unhappy medium. It's
unfilicitus in terms of its it's its its
time requirement. It's it's its attempt
at at at specification. It'd be great if
I could just take my concept and not
use.
>> Yeah. It's kind of fascinating when when
the young guys hear when we start
talking about prayer and they I ask them
about how do they hear the voice of God
um because God doesn't need to use such
>> un you know unefficient inefficient
means um and you've had this experience
we all have that where all of the sudden
you just see something
like you have you have that the concept
is just ready made as a form and it's in
your mind because he can speak like that
if he wants to
>> without something audible.
>> Matter of fact, if it's audible exterior
to you, you're probably just going
crazy. [laughter]
>> It's true. Extraordinary. Yeah, without
doubt. I mean even in cases of demonic
possession
um there you know there there are those
accounts where people are seeing things
that other people aren't seeing
>> you know and so there is this
communication for lack of a better word.
>> Yeah.
>> But it's not happening through the
senses. It's as though it's as though
something is being inputed just beyond
your eyes so that the brain sees it as
though your eyes are seeing it.
>> It's funny.
>> It's actually not coming at all.
>> One of the kids just one of the just
asked me this question and you know
Thomas has a for his day and age pretty
interesting answer for it
>> is just what you said basically that an
angel or a demon can manifest in one of
two ways. that they could use matter and
shape it in such a way that you actually
see it.
>> Um, but the more common way is more
likely the fact that they can just
manipulate your the matter of your brain
>> uh to to to have this image that's
presented there that you read off of as
a as a
>> you see as though it were using your
eyes.
>> Yeah, exactly.
>> Or in that case, as you were talking
about, you know, here.
>> Yeah.
>> Yeah. I mean, most cases, auditory
hallucinations are, you know, signs of
mental illness.
>> How's how's it going for you?
>> Well,
to be determined.
Yeah, my a I wish you were an auditory
hallucination. [laughter]
>> You take a pill and get rid of me.
>> Oh my gosh, it'd be a lot easier.
>> Yeah.
>> So, um Yeah. So, but but
rarest of occasions
oftentimes with something like a
visionary
uh you know to our lady to to the
blessed virgin Mary or something along
those lines where you might have an what
they call the alocution which um may or
may not be auditory you know in the
sense that their their brain is
receiving a signal that sounds like a
sound um or it could just be a
communication
but you know I've never really studied
too much of the the different types
of
allocations and
anything along those lines. But just
noting that there is that possibility
where
>> you know where that can happen but again
definitely not the norm very very very
very rare and usually people where you
know where they would have them
authentically there is a larger context
that would actually point to them being
plausible. Yeah,
>> like having visions of the blessed
virgin Mary that ultimately turn out to
be true, you know,
>> like, okay, that's a larger context that
says,
>> you know, maybe you're not having
auditory hallucination, maybe you're
actually have an alleution, but short of
those contexts, we generally don't don't
see it. Um, you have to have really some
sort of extraordinary context. Do you
think that Yeah, going back to what you
were saying earlier about um that
principle of receptivity
um and language you know St. Thomas has
that that line that is so fundamental
that that which is received is received
according to the mode of the receiver.
>> Words that I I can't I can't speak to
you Chinese if you don't speak Chinese
if I want you to receive it.
>> It's be according to the mode of the
receiver.
>> So if we were to try to communicate with
each other in such a way that I'm
actually considering
um the subject with whom I am speaking
and we typically do that in rhetoric,
right? We're trying to if we want
something from someone, we try to put
things in such a way that they would
receive it well. Um or if we have to
break bad news to someone or we've got
to ask them to do a hard task, you we we
tend to change our language to to fit
the receiver. Um
it's still sort of self- serving like
it's something we want from them. Um
yeah, if we were to engage in that kind
of
>> I guess it's just for lack of a better
term
the sense of the other person. Um, you
know, I was thinking the other day about
the fact that, you know, when our Lord
was was recently one of the gospels for
mass, he was he cast out de a demon and
and the people asked him to stay,
>> right? He says, I I've come I got to go
preach, you know, to the other um cities
and towns. And I thought to myself, I
wonder why they wanted him to stay
because some people just tell them to
leave,
>> you know.
>> Yeah.
>> Right.
we don't want to receive you.
Unfortunately, he didn't. But I thought,
what what would the experience be like
um of being so absorbed in one who
speaks with authority like he does,
whose whose manner of voice, whose whose
very visage, whose commanding presence
actually lets you forget about yourself
for a moment
>> and you become so wildly receptive uh to
just to that person.
I don't I can't think of anyone with
whom I really do that.
>> No,
>> I'm I'm constantly thinking about what
my responses are going to be, how I'm
being I don't think about how I'm being
perceived per se, but um I'm as a priest
because people are always asking you for
your opinion.
>> Yeah.
>> Council and whatever else. I'm just
running I'm running a a background.
>> Well, you play a role
>> dialogue in my
respond. Yeah, you can't just respond
crassly because that would be not
fitting to the role that you play.
>> But it doesn't sometimes it doesn't
allow me to just
>> say I I just want to see who you are,
>> right?
>> I want to forget about myself here. Uh
and that can happen certainly when when
you and I speak. I don't think we think
about it ourselves. Um, I don't think
about you either, but [laughter]
>> we know I I think I was talking to you
um uh not in a recorded session, but you
know, I was just talking about being
more authentic
>> and certainly one of the challenges in
the roles that we play, whether your
role as a mom, your role as a dad, your
role as a husband or a wife, your role
as a priest, that in all of these roles
we can in a certain sense
begin to feel like we're
acting
and a small gap of authenticity and
inauthenticity might begin to creep in
and at that point uh you have to start
asking yourself wait a minute am I now
just being these things for other people
and not really being myself. I think
it's a you know then it's a little bit
of negleing but I think it's an
important aspect to keep track of all
parts I mean everybody has a job they
play a part at work they you know
everyone plays a certain certain role in
social groups to a certain degree but is
there um alignment in congruence with
who you are and how it's being
manifested in the roles you play and
because we grow personally and
interiorly and in our own way, we can
just go back to the roles that we played
and never allow them to change with
ourselves. That if we're growing, which
pray God we are, if we're maturing, pray
God we are, if we're learning, pray God
we are, um are our are the roles that we
play
naturally
keeping up? And if not, then there's
going to be this gap and it will come
off as inauthentic
>> at least to yourself because you concede
both.
>> Maybe not to the outside world or you
wonder why you don't feel like anyone
really knows you, but because did you
let them, you know, did did you allow
them to begin to know you as you
evolved? Maybe they did when
did you give them access
uh to get to know you better? Yeah, it's
particular danger as a priest, right?
Because we live such very public lives.
>> And then then then a large part of your
life is also extremely private.
>> Yeah.
>> Those two roads don't always converge.
>> No, there's a lot of discernment and and
and right. What are the pitfalls? The
pitfalls is that you allow them to be so
divergent that one has nothing to do
with the other.
>> Yep. Yep. you know, so your your
preceding role is a job and then your
personal life goes off to a tangent.
>> Yeah. Yeah.
>> Or um the other extreme
is
you just are so yourself in your priesty
life that you're actually offensive. You
know, like [laughter]
you're just offensive to a lot of people
might like it and a lot of people might
hate it and you're just going to push
people away. It's like
>> Yeah. And that's the same with anyone,
right? You can't just be what you think
is authentic and you're authentically a
jerk.
>> Yeah. Yeah. You you can't do that.
>> Yeah. So, uh, it's a balancing act, but
I do think that we should be a little
more intentional, you know, to make sure
that we get it balanced every now and
then because I do think, um, what can
happen? I certainly experienced in my
own life where you you begin to wonder,
you know, how much are how much of the
role that I play
is aligned well with how I'm growing
internally, privately, in my own in my
own walk, in my own path. Um, or am I
kind of just stuck in a role that I put
together in the first 10 years of my
priesthood and not allowing it to mature
with me?
>> Sure. Sure.
>> You know, because that's an easy thing
to do, right? It's an easy thing. The
other question is really
like unlike God who understands and
knows himself in the act of being unlike
angels who
>> you love dropping these existential
>> well it's just because as I come down to
get to
>> let's let's begin with the the essence
of God
>> well then you go down to the angels
right and they can know themselves.
>> Yeah.
>> How do you you know we say who when
people ask the question who am I? I
actually only know myself by reflecting
on my acts.
>> I can't look inward and see something.
What do I see? I have a privileged
access to my thought life, but my
thought life is just my thought life.
Does it make up who I am to some degree?
Of course it does. But I don't enact all
of my thoughts.
>> Yeah.
>> How do I know what I'm I I'm extended
through time. Most of all of my acts
I've forgotten now. I don't even know
what I did or why I got to the point
where now this is something I always do.
Um, so I have to look at the things in
the course of a day that I've actually
done that were human acts
>> and then I look back at that and say
this is one of the things I do is kind
of strange I suppose but I like would I
be friends with me if I had the
opportunity. [laughter]
>> Yeah, I know how you feel. And I can
only I can only answer the question by
looking at the way I've behaved,
>> right?
>> I can't say I I think that I'm this or I
feel like I'm this. No, I am what I've
done.
>> And what have I done? How did I respond?
>> I would I come to me with a difficulty
or a problem or whatever else and and
how did I respond to the ones who did?
That's that's what I am,
>> you know? It's Yeah, it's true. And I
would also I know that when you say how
I act, I know it includes react as well.
>> Yeah, absolutely.
>> Um, you know, and I think that's where
things have been surprising sometimes to
me, where I've surprised myself where
I'm learning something about myself is
because I react differently. I may react
to a situation or to a person uh or to
something that I didn't really like, but
now I react differently.
>> It hits me differently. And I have an
interest, an intrigue, um a different
approach. And it's in that reaction that
that I know involves, you know, my my
intellect and
my will. And I know that they're all
working in a mix of it. But my my
conscious awareness is kind of the last
piece to fall. It's like I'm observing
myself and how I reacted.
>> Yeah.
>> And and I'm I'm asking myself why why is
that different? What what happened? Did
I change? Was it circumstantial?
Um, is there are there some nuances here
about myself that I didn't really pick
up on before where I always reacted this
way strongly?
>> X Y or Z and something and the way I
heard it here I reacted differently.
Yeah.
>> Is it is it that I've changed or was
something presented that was a bit, you
know, more nuanced? Am I developing
distinctions that I hadn't really
thought of before as to why I don't
react the same as I did before? Or am I
changing? You know, is there something
about me that's changing? And I think
that that's uh probably when I've
experienced it the most. Every now and
then I've surprised myself with how I
acted
>> in a good way
>> and a bad,
>> you know, where I lost my patience
and I raised my voice uh at someone.
Now, it's not terribly common, but it
can happen. And then after the fact, I I
I look at myself, I'm like, that does
it's not me, but I have to say, yeah,
but it was, you know, that was
>> why it was. So following those
breadcrumbs from a reaction to say that
is you on and why.
>> Yeah.
>> Yeah. And then as you say then I can
also I can do an action that that's good
and later on think that seemed out of
character for me. Not that I would do a
good thing but I normally wouldn't do
that
>> but I did.
>> Where's that coming from?
>> Yeah. I anyway I don't know how we got
from language to you know um knowing
oneself conscious awareness but it's a
natural bridge it all goes it all goes
back to you know who we are is
>> indeed well I I want to hear more at
some point about what your experience of
um an eastern language is that's
different um because I I I have zero
contact with them.
done nothing in the realm of oriental
languages.
>> Well, I should throw Greek in there, but
it's not really.
>> Well, let's let's not overstate the
case. I just simply looked into them. It
means little little little little in in
terms of a practical reality. So, don't
please don't [laughter]
>> I'm not pressing you on.
>> No, no, no. But I I find them
interesting and and even in the the
translation of
um some eastern Asian writing,
>> the con the concepts translated into
English.
You know, the language affects how we
think, how we
>> Oh, for sure it does.
>> create relationships in our mind.
>> Yeah. whether they're again more
algebraic or are they more poetic?
>> Have you ever heard John Woo?
>> I don't know.
>> He's a he's a many things, but he's an
author. He's he's deceased now. He grew
up in a small town in China. Um and
became a Catholic and and his father was
not, his parents were not, and a
Carmelite and a real a real aesthetic
mystic. Um he's got a book that I'm
reading now called Beyond East and West
>> and he's he's just talking about what it
is to grow up from the vantage point of
a a Chinese man in a very small fishing
village with all that comes with that
with Confucianism and Buddhism
>> and then encountering um an entirely
different world uh relative to to the
faith. And it's a it's an interesting
read.
>> Well, I I'm interested.
>> I think you would like it. Yeah. The
delta of these two very very different
worlds.
>> Yeah. No,
>> we saw as always happens with these
things, you know, the seeds of the logos
that were in his own little small
fishing town
>> allowed for him once he met Christ to
see where Christ was there.
>> So,
>> yeah, there's a there's a high regard
for natural wisdom in um you know, in in
in Asian thinking and perspective.
U almost a
like sort of a filio
surrender to it
>> which I think is translated into their
respect for um older people.
>> Yeah.
>> Because they have a great a great
respect for the wisdom that can be
gleaned by age.
>> This is why you're falling into the
eastern thing right now since you
>> I am preparing ahead
>> so they'll respect you. [laughter]
It's not too far ahead, but I think
we're there.
>> No. Yeah, I know.
>> But all right.
>> Very good. Well, it's good to talk with
you
>> with everyone out there. And uh thanks
to yet tan for putting up with us our
starts and stops and and um and
>> I think we already did our before we go.
Anyway,
>> we can we did in the beginning, but
sure.
>> All right. Well, are you drinking beer
in the morning?
>> No. You know, I've got this um sort of
hydration packet that
>> a vitamin C thing.
>> I don't know. I just take whatever. I'm
kind of spoiled. The sisters spoil me.
Whatever they put on my desk to eat or
drink or whatever this I got a whole
tray full of vitamins I think that they
give me. I don't know what it is.
>> Gretchen gave up on me.
>> Did she?
>> Well, in a way, but you know, she's
whipping up all sorts of witches bruise
and [laughter]
I don't know. stuff and whatever else.
>> I never feel any different, but I just
drink and eat what they what they
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
>> It's their charism. [laughter]
>> Yeah.
>> It is. It is. So, um, did was that mine
before you go or is that yours?
>> That's mine.
>> Oh, well, I called you out for drinking
in the morning. I think that counts as
mine, too.
>> Okay, fair enough. [laughter]
>> All right. Well, I kind of said mine
before, which is
>> Well, I mean, the next time we see each
other, we're going to be into the fall
mode.
>> Yes. Yes.
>> In one week, the weather's going to
change.
>> I'm gonna pull out my fall sense.
Although Although I do not like the
flavor of pumpkin,
>> you you've made that manifest several
times. some pumpkin yog if if that's a
defect in the rest of you. I look
forward to your glorified bodies where
you can understand that it's not
supposed to be something you enjoy.
However,
if it's a defect in mind, then I look
forward to eventually being able to
appreciate it. Not going to be on the
side of eternity.
>> You can guarantee that.
>> I'm going to let it go.
>> Very good.
>> All right. [music] I got bigger to fry.
>> Indeed. God bless you all. me. You
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