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In this special Q&A session marking the tenth anniversary of St. Joseph College Seminary's open house, Monsignor Patrick Winslow and Father Matthew Coward explore profound theological connections between the Old and New Testaments, illustrating how figures and symbols like Adam, grapes, and tombs find their fulfillment in Christ. The conversation extends to the veneration of Catholic relics, describing them as tangible instruments of grace that bridge the faithful with saints, while also addressing the Church's reverent yet cautious approach to scientific debates surrounding artifacts like the Shroud of Turin. A significant portion of the dialogue focuses on the nature of forgiveness and the unforgivable sin, explaining that Christ's sacrifice satisfies divine justice to allow mercy to flow to all who are contrite, whereas the unforgivable sin is defined as a prideful rejection of this need for mercy.
The discussion then shifts to practical spiritual guidance regarding penance and the interior journey of conversion, warning against the trap of "endless shame" that arises from constantly questioning whether one should perform extra devotions beyond what is assigned in confession. Father Calvin clarifies that penance is not a mechanical transaction where specific acts automatically reduce time in purgatory but rather a process focused on the genuine conversion of the heart and the removal of attachment to sin. The hosts advise believers to seek sincerity and discernment in their spiritual practices, choosing those that resonate personally rather than feeling guilty for not accommodating every existing devotion, emphasizing that while God can heal instantly with perfect contrition, the human journey typically requires time and perseverance to transform one's nature through grace.
Beyond theological doctrine, the speakers offer heartfelt advice for family life, urging fathers to prioritize their vocation of loving God above all else while modeling consistent faith through morning prayer regardless of fatigue or distractions. The session highlights the importance of genuine conversations about eternal values over mundane topics, fostering a community oriented toward spiritual growth rather than superficial interaction. This message is underscored by a touching anecdote about Father Gober closing St. Leo's Church early on Holy Thursday to rest, despite faithful visitors hoping for extended access, serving as a reminder that even in the absence of physical presence, God remains accessible through the Eucharist and sacraments. The episode concludes with announcements for upcoming events and resources, inviting all listeners to continue their journey of faith with perseverance and a heart open to God's glory.
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It's been a long, long day. I got a lot
to say. It feels like I'm carrying a
two-ton weight. I go and see a friend.
>> Hello. I'm Monsignor Patrick Winslow.
>> And I am Father Matthew Coward.
>> And we are speaking from the rooftop.
>> A podcast brought to you by TAN Books.
>> In which we invite you to join our
conversation out here in the open air.
>> Where we look out upon the world around
us from the rooftop of the church and
share with you what we see.
>> Makes me
want to scream
from rooftop to the
street.
>> Hi and welcome to St. Joseph College
Seminary. We had our 10th anniversary
recently and during that we had a number
of various events and one of the events
was actually inviting people to come and
sit with us, myself and Father Winslow,
um do a live recording of From the
Rooftop, our typical podcast. And in
this case, the people who came were also
able to proffer the questions for us
that we would then discuss. And so it
was a fun time, fun to be live like that
in front of people and have a general
conversation going on. The only
difficulty is equipment and so we messed
that up. At some point his mic went off,
which was probably a good thing.
And at some point mine went off, which
is a horrible, horrible thing. Um but uh
I know that this recording therefore of
this particular podcast will not be the
best quality. So I apologize for that.
We want to make sure we got it out there
to everyone simply because the people
that were participating in that, no
doubt, will want to hear their their own
questions and and maybe the responses to
which they they could write something
down if they wanted to or or ask a
follow-up question. So just for them and
for anyone else who might be able to uh
to listen to it, I hope you enjoy and
God bless you.
>> I'm always fascinated on learning all
the different connections between the
Old Testament and how they're fulfilled
in the New Testament. So, can you
speak on maybe like the your top five
like all moments of where the old is
fulfilled in the new?
>> That's a really really great question.
>> What's up to wrap it up?
>> You're not going to believe this. You
you are not a plant. We didn't give you
that question.
But, we have a play today that's based
on the road to Emmaus.
>> No plan. Yeah, it's the road to Emmaus.
>> So, the play that we're putting on, I
asked them to do it because what they
wanted to do was something about a man.
And on the road to Emmaus, what did
Jesus say
to that man?
But, that he revealed to them all in the
law and the prophets. That means the
entire Old Testament.
It's the shorthand for the Old
Testament. That refers to him. That is
the greatest scripture class that ever
existed.
That's why their hearts were burning
within them. So, trying to go back and
find those types. A type tupos in Greek
is like a make Christmas cookies and you
get the shape of a Christmas tree.
That's a tupos.
It's like a stamp. Then you're going to
see that repeated and fulfilled in the
New Testament. So, the old adage is that
the New Testament's hidden in the
and revealed in the new.
So much so that you only understand the
New Testament if you get all the types.
The way the way God foreshadowed
everything by persons, places, and
things. Cuz you and I can use words and
write a book and then throw a
foreshadowing there.
But, he uses real events. He is the
author of all history. So, this one that
Monsignor Wingle is bringing up
like the savior. Um
but, it it about the grapes. So, in that
verdant altar, and we actually had it in
the play,
>> I said fruit altar.
>> But the grapes are important because our
Lord goes into the wine press.
>> That's true.
>> And so they have the the grapes are
hanging on a pole.
And so the next image there is our Lord
hanging on the cross.
Right? That's so potent.
I think I think for my own one that's
been hitting me a lot recently,
um I think because of
the individual thinking about creation,
etc.,
is that Adam, as you know, was drawn
forth from the earth.
And the earth at the time,
um that clay was
virginal in so far as it There's no sin
in it.
And our Lord, of course, as you know,
that really anthropomorphic scene in
Genesis where he forms him out of the
ground of the earth and breathes life
into his nostrils.
And then, of course, the woman is
brought forth
from
the side of the man. Why Why is the Why
is a rib taken from Adam? I like asking
this question cuz men usually answer one
way, and women usually answer the other
way.
Men would answer first. Why is it taken
a rib?
>> It sounds like
>> What's that?
Aw, man, your wife's going to be so
happy with you.
It protects the heart. Because because
that's what typically women say, it's
close to the heart. Men usually say,
"Well, he's got a bunch of them."
Right? He's got spare ribs.
But but it's it's it fascinates me that,
of course, our the woman was pulled
forth
from the man. And then you have this
reversal that takes place in in the
incarnation.
Now we have a new virginal man, as it
were.
And inside of the blessed mother,
someone is formed out of that clay, out
of that virgin clay of her own body.
And then you got another type that takes
place with the tomb and the womb.
You probably all know that that um
in the scriptures it says that Joseph of
Arimathea went to Pontius Pilate to ask
for the body. And he laid the body in
what?
What kind of tomb?
Why did John bother to say
the place where he laid
you know
I laid it in a tomb and it cost him 450.
Right? But he never throws out a line
that's unimportant.
And so this particular detail is
meaningful to John.
Is this
Is this on?
>> It does look on.
>> Oh, I didn't know it was on.
>> I mean you can hear me.
>> You're welcome.
>> I wasn't on.
>> Well, you had it off before I videoed
you before.
>> Yeah, you were on.
>> Okay, what's on?
>> Okay. All right, keep going. Virgin.
>> So relative to the relative to the tomb
he comes forth from the tomb and the
stone is what?
Stone wasn't removed.
Stone gets removed afterwards.
Right? The idea behind that, of course,
is that he comes forth from the virgin
from the blessed mother and she remains
a virgin before, during, and after.
So too with the tomb. It's a beautiful
allusion
uh to our Lord recreating everything.
But in a total reversal.
Yeah.
Do you have any illusions you want to
talk about or should we go to the
questions?
>> Um no, we can go to another question. Um
that said
I don't know what might have been
recorded or not. Um
somehow I got turned off. I I feel like
you're playing tricks on me.
And you notice how I didn't care if I
interrupted him.
Nor does he care if he interrupts me.
But he's always the one that handles the
technology. So I just I So I didn't even
know if it was on or off, I just put it
before him and
>> It's on now.
>> It is. Okay, very good.
>> let's go with another one.
>> Yeah. So, my question is can you speak
to relics in the Catholic faith and the
need to have something tangible with
such a spiritual I mean, our faith is
all spiritual but we still want the
relics, something wood, stone, whatever
to hang on to a saint to connect.
>> Yeah, you know, it's interesting you ask
that question because we we just had the
petition the bishop to petition Rome to
give us relics for the new altar.
And so, you can ask for what saints you
want but they'll give you who they going
to give you. Um
but it's a sort of official process when
you get a new altar. It's beautiful.
You want to start or you want
>> Yeah, did you I mean, you could tell
them what I've offered you as a term for
relic. So, I I I came to discover
No, not like my bed sheets or something.
No, no.
>> Hair clippings.
>> Oh, please. No, no, no.
Uh I
we have a a small little trove of relics
at the diocese precisely for these types
of occasions.
>> it?
You bring it?
>> I didn't bring it um because I'm
retrieving for a parish that had it on
loan.
And uh it is the cloak a piece of the
cloak of Saint Joseph.
And so, I called Father Calvin said, "Do
you have that?" He's like, "No, I
don't." So, I said, "We're going to get
that to you so that you can keep it here
at the altar."
Uh so, it's really very beautiful to
consider and think of.
All that having been said, I
I have
uh a profound reverence
for relics
and
uh an intellectual
conundrum about relics, but especially
when it comes to body parts.
So,
instinctively, my Catholic instinct
kicks in
and I just have this sense of holy
vibrations coming from something that
was part of the life of the person uh
who was so illumined by Christ. On the
other hand, I think you got to bury the
dead. Just bury the dead, you know.
And it's so
And then I then I go back to okay, what
were those Italians thinking when they
were running after her head Catherine's
head and then her foot and then John the
Baptist's arm. I mean, it's it gets a
tiny bit gruesome.
And yet on the other hand, when I go to
cities and towns with these churches
that have these major relics,
I am so grateful and I'm moved in my
faith.
So, at an experiential level,
I'm with the church. On an intellectual
level, I just have to say, "Stop
thinking about it too much." So, that's
where I am when it comes to the body
part relics. Certainly, um it's a lot
easier when you consider uh the second
class relics
like the garb of St. Joseph or uh maybe
uh
some of the uh clothing of St. Francis
of Assisi. Um
But, nonetheless, uh they they've proven
to be potent in terms of inspiring
people in their faith.
Uh clearly, they're instruments that are
employed by the Holy Spirit to evoke
faith.
And they're also clearly involved in the
works of exorcisms
uh and exorcists and what they do in
bringing the holy light to shine upon a
dark situation. So, all those things
speak to the reality of it and my mental
reservations just kind of sit in the
wayside. Because
there's a bigger picture that I can wrap
my head around.
>> I was surprised. We we speak a lot of
Latin here. Historically, we like to
learn Latin. We we use the language as
it really is supposed to be used and so
I was surprised one time when Magistra
said to me um to pick up the relics from
the counter.
And I'm like, both of the counter."
And it just means what remains. Get the
rest of the stuff.
And I I was thinking relics, relics,
right?
But it's just what remains. And I think
that it's such a human
a human response
that we all have
that when our ship capsizes, no matter
how it capsizes,
we reach for the cargo.
Like, "What can I save?"
And
when we experience death,
that's just what we do. This is what
Mary Magdalene did the morning of the
resurrection. She's talking to this
would-be gardener
as if she's going to drag his body.
And she's unconsolable because his body
is gone.
Like, at least she had his body.
There's something about that kind of
connectivity because when when people
die, you know how it is. You've all
experienced someone dying. I mean, most
of you probably have or maybe But I
don't They don't live in my heart.
I mean, yes, I suppose in some of these
things, but I want them to live.
I want the person in front of me. I want
the actual interaction and the
confrontation that happens with persons.
And persons are only mediated for us
through the body.
And so, while we know that they exist,
we believe and we hope in their eternal
life, I want contact. And so, I think
part of the thing that's so wonderfully
incarnate about relics is that we don't
burn bodies. We don't just get rid of
the the the rest. Just get it out of our
face. On the contrary, we have a great
reverence for it.
Because it was the temple of the Holy
Spirit. And that body right there,
whatever part, piece, hair, nail
clipping, whatever the thing is, belongs
to the one who stands before God. So,
talk about a connectivity.
If I have this thing in my hands or I'm
referencing this relic, the the person
to whom it belongs is beholding the face
of God.
That's not a small thing.
And the church has not just, as Father
said,
had great approbation for doing this,
but but
it's just proven to work.
That is to say, people take pilgrimages
and they go to see relics and they touch
their rosaries and their lips and
everything else and things happen. God
likes to unleash his graces
through material signs, because that's
what sacraments are, right?
We're embodied creatures, and so he he
doesn't have to. He can give you grace
any way he wants to.
But he chooses to give it to us often
times through the medium of matter,
which is pretty humbling that this stuff
can be an instrument of grace.
But
that's why he chose it.
>> I think it's another example where the
piety of the faithful
leads
uh the the bishops of the church.
Where I don't know that they would ever
have gotten there
on their own, but you can't deny the
response of the faith. And this goes all
the way back to the bones of Peter.
So,
uh there's a wonderful story about the
bones of Peter being discovered during
the Second World War when they were
excavating an area to prepare for a a
pope to be buried there,
and they came across the ancient
necropolis cemetery uh that sat on that
hill of Vatican Hill, which is likely a
a Roman family name, which is where the
word Vatican comes from, and it's where
this necropolis, this old
quasi-subterraneal cemetery existed,
and they kind of fell through to it um
and discovered what they believed to be
the site of the bones of the burial of
Peter.
And
I won't go through the whole story, but
suffice it to say
they they they were discovered
not precisely under the location where
the graffiti markings indicated. There
they found a bunch of dummy bones, like
some animals and whatever.
Uh they were just sort of a ruse.
To the right on this little buttress
wall they found the markings
that was like graffiti markings
indicating Peter.
And there they actually found
human remains of a man that dated back
to that time. It was from the region of
Palestine. And the the thing that really
the really thing that the thing that
really sealed the deal is they could
find representations of every part of
the body in that collection of bones
except for the feet.
And Peter was crucified upside down.
And they would have lopped them off at
the feet.
And so it really became conclusive.
But it tells me and it tells everybody
that going back uh to the time in which
these uh bones were remained the remain
they they thought about faithful coming
and stealing his remains.
I mean it goes all the way back to
Peter.
That they actually had to create a dummy
set of bones
so they could preserve the real bones in
a quiet little place nearby, not too far
away, so that when people went there
they were actually at the but but the
faithful would want to grab one. So I
mean this is just going all the way back
to St. Peter.
>> Yeah, as you said so it's just so
instinctive in the Christian.
It's just instinctive for us to want to
be close to
um
the bodies of the saints.
Oh rats, you're still on.
>> Oh, thanks.
Despite your best efforts. Next one.
>> Let's make this a family affair.
>> So I'll so I'll quickly try to lay some
context for the question and then
there's a two-party question. Recently
all all over the internet on on YouTube,
there's a lot of influencers and the
Shroud of Turin is getting a lot of
traffic, which I think is an outpouring
of the spirit and a a reawakening. One
of the persons pontificating on it
stated that it would take a energy
ex-excessive of a nuclear blast to
imprint that image within two microns on
a flaxen linen garment. So, my question
is, what's the church's position
on it, what's your
personal position on it if you can't
have that, and also the significance of
the Gospels specifically stating where
the
um
death cloths were laid inside the tomb,
cuz I find that fascinating as well.
>> Yeah. Yeah.
That's a great question. I The church is
always so skeptical of these things for
good reason. She just sits back and
waits
um
for one of two things or both.
The best science to be able to
articulate what we can know by virtue of
human reason, and then all kinds of
miracles.
Um without that, she can't know that
these things are necessarily authentic.
Um but in the case of the Shroud of
Turin, it has been held to be authentic
for an awfully long time. And I've seen
the shroud in in Turin myself, and I
have to tell you, it's
it's frightening.
It's just in a in a in a good way.
It's just you you
I suppose it's the kind of awe that
comes over you when you realize that my
heavens, this is all true.
And you know it's true, but when you
encounter things like that, it's like
as if the Eucharist, for example,
Eucharistic miracles, if I were to see
the host bleeding, it it's not that I
don't believe that, but it enters into a
different realm that it it crosses the
line of that which is supernatural and
it deposit itself into the natural. So,
do I believe it? Absolutely.
I think it's it's perfectly consistent
with both the gospels and what we know
of our of our blessed Lord. I've always
been intrigued by the one cloth that
John again, you know, when he says
things are not throw away lines. This
one's wrapped up by itself.
I've heard a lot of descriptions of why
that's the case, but perhaps the most
simple and
real one is that um
he simply took it off.
Like he comes through the the cloth
that's wrapped around his body.
And then he just he just picks this
thing up and and because he's so calm
now, because of the strife is over, the
battle is done, he bothers to fold it up
and put it away.
I love that.
>> Oh my this is perfect. For your role as
a rector, this is you use scripture to
get these young men to make their beds.
>> their beds.
>> This is brilliant.
Our Lord, his first thing he did was
make his bed.
>> up and made his bed.
>> Unbelievable.
So
>> His mama would have been proud.
>> How well-mannered. That's actually
really beautiful. I could I could see a
lot of reflection going on that. Just
keeping the right order. I mean, cuz
it's not something you would think that
maybe the first thing our resident
director Lord would do is to fold up the
linen, but he did.
Well, also perhaps to preserve it so
that we could have the Shroud of Turin.
>> Yeah, the head head piece is different.
>> Yeah.
>> The Shroud of Turin and then the what he
folded was the head
>> The fact though the head piece in
particular.
>> Yeah, so that's but that exists in Italy
still.
>> Beautiful. Well, um
my thought is this.
Although the church
rightfully takes very cautious positions
with respect to these things,
she still holds them
in in reverence
uh to allow for time
to bear witness to their authenticity.
And uh I why might the church be
cautious?
Because the fullness of the gospel is on
the line.
You don't attach it to some other thing
in history that might be proven or
called into question.
So,
you want to make sure that you you make
room in the life of the church for these
things to bear witness to the fullness
of the gospel,
but never to attach a weight around the
gospel
that could cause people to see it being
torn down.
Um
at the at the same time the space that's
created to allow these things to bear
witness is the fact that the shirt the
shroud has been held, as you say,
throughout ancient times into the modern
time. And it's been held in places of
reverence and protection.
So, those things tell you that this this
the church has created this space for
such artifacts and and and holy items.
With respect to
the science on it, I remember when I was
in graduate school at Georgia Tech,
uh around I think it was in the '80s,
there was a carbon dating on the sample
that made a lot of headlines suggesting
that it was not dated back to the time
of Christ, but it was somewhere in the
Middle Ages or I can't remember when.
But um I took a a course in X-ray
crystallography,
and my professor
uh was actually a scientist who was
asked to review the carbon
dating study.
And
he said to me,
"That thing was a piece of garbage
essentially."
He said, "The sampling they took was on
a part of a section that was clearly
covered with soot from a fire that had
happened in the Middle Ages. Like you
you just begin with the sample.
You you don't have an authentic sample.
The difficulty is that created a cloud
of suspicion over the shroud for a
number of people cuz you could read the
headlines that came out in the '80s.
Uh but no one ever really retracted
quite in the same way. And to say that
actually that study was really debunked
uh because of the the sampling location.
So, um it was really interesting at the
time
when I was studying there, I never
thought that I would
ever repeat that to anybody. Not that it
was a secret, but
subsequently in time people have asked
about that study and my time in the
ministry of the priesthood and I've been
able to say, "Look, I actually knew a
guy who reviewed this who was asked to
review the study itself who told me from
his lips it was
dubious at best."
>> I just
strikes me that if this happens to our
Lord, and we just talked about relics,
what's going to happen to your body?
And we profess to believe in the
resurrection of the body.
And whatever you're laid in the tomb
with,
I'm not laying out nice vestments, I'll
steal those.
Um just but
you're going to go through, right? I
mean, whatever happens to him, because
he's the firstborn, it's going to happen
to us. And that's that's kind of
exciting.
To think about my body, like, yeah, I I
I want this thing to be new. I want it
to go pass through walls and and be
illuminated and then and agile and
things of that nature. I want my back to
stop hurting.
Um but I want a new body.
And that's that's that's our promise.
And I think it's why he did it.
You know, just have his he he doesn't
leave his body behind.
And it's always strange when you read
those first readings of Eastertide and
no one really kind of recognizes him and
then they do.
Um but the one thing that he wants them
to recognize that always tips off that
it's him, of course,
are the wounds.
He leaves those
as a manifestation or a marker of he is
the one.
Which is why when in church art when you
want to depict the Antichrist,
the Antichrist always looks just like
Satan. And how do you know he's not
Jesus? I'm sorry. The Antichrist looks
like Jesus. But how do you know he's not
Jesus? He won't bear any wounds.
He won't bear any wounds.
>> You know, I was going to actually going
to ask you,
why do you think that in the gospels
so many times he is not presented in a
recognizable way or he prevents them
from recognizing him?
>> My personal
My personal belief, um which is not
canonical, this is not the church's
teaching,
um she doesn't really pronounce on this,
is that from the beginning he's teaching
them to find him.
And teaching them to find him in a way
that they didn't have him. As St. John
says, we once knew him in the flesh, we
know him now no longer.
I'm talking to you about what I heard
with my ears and what I saw with my
eyes.
I'm talking about the word of life. But
now we have him that way no longer.
And so why is it the case that
the on the road to Emmaus they came to
recognize him in the breaking of the
bread, which is a phrase that for us
sounds kind of trite, but that phrase
was only used about the Blessed
Eucharist.
The breaking of the bread.
And so he's training them as it were,
this is how you're going to recognize
him.
You're going to find me now in the
sacraments.
What with Mary Magdalene, you can't
cling to him. You can't have me that way
anymore. You're going to have me in a
much more profound way. I told you that
those who keep my word, I'm going to
make my home inside you.
That's not located in one place where he
can't be in another place.
That's that's an interior dwelling. So
my personal belief is that he he he
shows up as different things and then
they sort of as they come to believe,
like the road to Damascus,
or their faith is manifested, and their
desire is manifested, then he he
manifests himself to them.
>> And that that really is what kind of
where I came to, but the way I was
thinking about it, more precisely, is
resonating with
uh the apostles and disciples'
experiences in the sense that they had
him present.
>> Yeah.
>> And now they have to grow a muscle of
faith.
Not faith in him, which they had,
but how to live a life and be engaged in
such a way that they're carrying on the
ministry and the work in the the apostle
of Christ
um in in a different way.
A way that he would be present, but not
the way he was. In a certain sense,
it's it's almost like
they're a little bit handicapped
because they're accustomed to going and
asking him.
>> Yeah.
>> Right?
>> Or bring people to him.
>> Or bringing people to him. Um
but now they have to do it a different
way.
>> Don't you
>> And this is training them.
>> Yeah, don't you feel that you all feel
weird when
I mean, I feel sometimes it's my own
lack of faith, I suppose, but
that there's that little moment when I'm
talking to someone and I'm going to
bring them to our Lord, but then it's
like, all right, Lord, you need me to do
something. Is it
I can't pretend as if they're hearing
you.
>> Right.
>> pretend as if they're being influenced
by your grace. Um I'm handing them over
to you, you who preceded my activity by
grace, and I know you'll do something,
but you There's that little moment of
indecision of of insecurity, maybe, that
I don't know how the Lord's going to
manifest himself to you.
I can't make that happen.
I just know in faith that he does.
>> Mhm.
Which is where the apostles and those
disciples had to get to.
>> Yeah.
Uh and so that was I think what we're
seeing is sort of the the new learning
curve for them.
>> Yeah, I would say too.
All right. Well, I have some dad advice
in honor of St. Joseph for you too.
So, I'm a father of three.
All under three. Praise God. Thank you.
You guys are fathers of hundreds and
thousands.
But I guess my question is at the end of
the day I often times feel overwhelmed
with
like what prayers or how do I best
represent
the faith
to my family when I've been working all
day and you know, they don't see me in
the morning, things like that. You're
out. You come back home, you help with
the duties. You know, there's the
rosary, kind of the
Um
but at the end of the day it's kind of
like
bring everyone into bed.
Prayers before bed. But how do how like
what would be one way maybe where
you can bring the prayerful presence to
your children so they see you or
whatever, but you still also start to
believe it yourself.
>> Did Say that last part. So that you
start to
>> So start to really like believe it and
live it yourself, right? Cuz that's kind
of where I'm also struggling is like
going through the motions
for the faith.
>> what I'll I'll I'll jump off. Um
I don't know about the rest of you, but
when you pray the rosary in particular,
it's so easy for the distractions to
come in.
Uh it's so easy for the many different
things to flood your mind.
Um
I have chosen a path of not trying to
swat them away,
but rather to use them as a leverage
points,
to bounce off them,
and be open to the possibility that
maybe there's something hidden in the
distraction.
So, say for example,
I'm I'm meditating on uh one of the
glorious mysteries. It's Easter time.
Maybe it's the Ascension of our Lord.
And suddenly, what am I going to make
for dinner?
Just enters into my head cuz I've been
really thinking about what I wanted. Um
I was like, "Okay, we've all been
there."
So, now I'm like, "Okay, I'm really
tempted. It's amazing how tempted I am
to set aside the Ascension of our Lord
for food." Um which is uh bespeaks my my
my weakness. But
instead of trying to swat it away, which
is going to consume my quick little 10
Hail Marys,
I rather say, "Okay,
this thought's here.
I'm in the Ascension.
What questions could that thought evoke
about the Ascension?"
Is there food in heaven?
He did eat.
And then I take that distraction and I
jump off of it back into the mystery.
I think uh I I would offer advice
similarly.
Uh and I think it aligns a lot with my
uh Mother Teresa's lived contemplative
experience
uh in serving the poorest of the poor,
which is through the things that you're
doing,
bounce off of them
into the mysteries.
Um
and it's not trying to spiritualize
your life
in in the way that spirit spiritualizing
something has almost
um
a certain quality
whereby you sublimate it.
Where you go from something solid and
turn it into ethereal and it becomes a
lesser.
No, rather to stay in the incarnate
reality of it.
So, if you're
dealing with, I don't know, a child
uh that you have to correct.
Like, okay, I got to I got to correct
it. I'm I'm about to lose my temper. All
right.
God the Father, how did you do this? We
crucified your son. You know, and to to
bounce in just a little bit to on that
issue to bounce into the mystery of
something
that
brings you back in that moment with a
different perspective and a different
type of engagement of your faith,
but not in a way that sublimates it.
Not in a way that makes it go from a
real thing to
really escaping it in some ethereal way,
but in a way in which you're engaging it
in real time at that moment. And I think
those become real pearls
um in the course of one's life.
Extremely difficult when all of the
passions are engaged, when all of the
emotions are engaged, when all sorts of
dynamics are unfolding.
Uh extremely difficult, but I think it
is a proper way
uh to have a a lived faith.
I'm not sure where what you would want
to add.
>> that's
extremely useful and practical. I think
we had a podcast on that one time.
>> Well, you know, I never remember what I
say.
>> But but there's one on that as your
topic. But maybe more more uh less
granular and more more general. Um
my father was a really really fine
fisherman. Goes back a long way
and
as a result of that, I had to fish
all the time. And I liked fishing, not
quite as much as he did, um but he would
be in his chair
preparing reels and painting baits, and
he's a bait maker, too, at 3:00 in the
morning.
And then he would get me up at like
3:30, 4:00, and he'd say, "They're
lapping the shallows. Get out of bed."
And I had to get up, and like no kid
wants to get up at that hour and then
drive and get on the lake and it's cold
and whatever else and
um but I I was so impressed by his
commitment to the sport.
And as he got older, he got religious.
And
the bait making and the real preparation
gave way
to his prayer time.
And
he spent the same amount of time
early early in the morning, and I knew
he was there.
Now, my father was a chain smoker since
he was 14.
And so the first time I came out after
being back from seminary, I know he's in
his prayer chair in the morning and he's
smoking his cigarettes, praying his
breviary.
And I said, "Dad, are you are you
smoking while you're praying?" He goes,
"No, no, no, I'm I'm praying while I
smoke."
But but what what impressed me about
that
was that I knew he was going to be there
every morning.
It was just simple commitment.
And it it translated for me something
that I I have here at the seminary in my
own mind. I I've probably told this
before, but I
I it's like it's like lighting a fire in
the morning.
Like I got to be the one to get up when
it's still cold out and when the kids
are in bed and my wife is in bed, so to
speak, right? And light the fire.
That doesn't need to be a true fire if
you're you're going to heat up your
house, but that's your job.
And if they grow up knowing that dad is
the first one up
and he's lighting the fire
for my family.
The second thing I would say because
that one proves to them that you love
God more than anything else.
Not because you're not distracted during
this prayer or that prayer, fighting
kids here and there or whatever, but but
you make a commitment to that, they will
know that things are okay cuz my dad
loves God.
That's the kind of stability you can
that gets ingrained in them.
It's like epigenetics. It's going to
change their DNA.
The second thing is they have to know
that you love your wife more than you
love them.
Right?
Um if they ever come between you and
your wife, you've got a problem.
Because what gives them a sense of
shelter
and protection?
That my father, my dad
is here for my mom.
So that's your vocation.
Like you don't have to worry about
spending holy hours in the church. We'll
We'll take care of that. We'll all take
care of it.
Um
No, he prays. He doesn't pray. I'm not
talking about
Um
That's our job.
We take care of the church.
Right? You take care of your small
church, your little family, which means
that And that's the great thing about
St. Joseph. He didn't have to go to
church to do holy hour.
Right?
I mean, son of God was right there.
And you want to talk to Blessed Mother?
We'll talk to her, too.
Imagine an evening and you want to pray
the ros- the rosary? Sure.
Blessed are among women, blessed is the
fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Right?
That That's That That domestic church is
is yours.
Um and you don't have to think about
trying to be
priestly in our sense, right? But
take care of that church. You love God
as Joseph did, love the son of God there
more than anyone else.
And then
of course love his wife.
>> And if you do that, you'll avoid the
spiritual pride that Father Cowart falls
into.
>> Last one?
>> Yeah.
Who's up?
>> Hi. Just this morning with a group of
men we were talking about Christ's words
on the cross, Father forgive them for
they know not what they do. And we were
pondering whether that meant that all of
those present were forgiven
uh including perhaps Judas because he
was part of what had been done.
But what do you make of that
pronouncement
um as as it regards to the uh salvation
of
the people present?
>> So I I think it's the the universal
openness of God to to offer mercy for
all those who are contrite and open to
the truth. Um I think the word the truth
was made flesh and hung there on the
cross.
And um
and he's offering mercy to all those who
would seek it.
I think we have in scripture that you
know the mention of the the really on
the unforgivable sin is a sin
blasphemy against the Holy Spirit which
is
can be interpreted in in many different
ways, but certainly could be understood
against the whole notion that there is
some
some sins that are unforgivable in the
sense that uh
there are those sins that one is not
contrite of.
So there are those things that amount to
a blasphemy against the Holy Spirit
because there's a suggestion um
that either it's not needed
the forgiveness is not needed
uh
or
it's not powerful enough to do the job.
That God can't forgive me.
Uh which is a really twisted form of
pride.
Um God you know God forbid that I need
help. God forbid that I need the cross
to save me.
No, I'll
I'm going to make it to heaven because I
made it to heaven on no other way.
It's just a a horrible form of pride.
So um
you can either you can fall to the the
category of just not accepting your own
faults, your own weaknesses
or you can go this perverted type of
spiritual provide or pride that uh
rejects
uh that mercy that is extended by Christ
by virtue of his intercession with the
Father because
you don't need the help.
Uh either way, it amounts to the same
thing. One closes themselves off
to the mercy that is being afforded
there.
So,
to get to your question about the
specific people who are present,
I think really what it is about is the
disposition of those individuals.
>> It's You mentioned Judas when
Our Lord said to Judas, "What you are
about to do."
Quickly.
Judas didn't know what he was doing.
I think that
I think that in all sin there's a kind
of there's certain ignorance, right?
There's a certain ignorance built into
every sin.
Because if we actually knew A, the
ramifications of every one of our
actions,
and we actually knew that some of those
ramifications might be eternal
damnation,
right? We wouldn't do them.
We would see that even though I think
this is going to be a good thing, it's
an apparent good, it's a counterfeit
good, I'm going after it believing that.
Believing that it's a real one, I should
say. Um if I saw all the ends of all of
my actions, like that's never going to
get me anywhere.
It's unlikely we could possibly choose
it.
So, there is a certain ignorance built
into all of us.
Not only ignorance, but but the certain
And I think that as Monsignor Windle was
saying, at that moment
in which justice is being paid by the
Son,
at that moment, right? He didn't He
didn't just wipe out
the debt.
He didn't have to be crucified. There's
a beautiful teaching about St. from St.
Thomas that that anything Our Lord did
was sufficient to save us.
It's not that it wasn't enough, it's
just it wasn't perfect.
And there's a difference. Like he's
making the perfect offer, the perfect
payment as it were of the debt of sin,
the perfect enactment of justice toward
his father to give his father what you
and I can no longer give him, which is
everything.
And because he's paying the justice,
then he can afford then he can
dis- dispense with the mercy.
Right? And so that's that moment which
this is paid now, forgive them for they
don't know what they're doing.
Um and that's true. We we honestly don't
know what we're doing mostly.
I mean how many times have you sinned
and you talked yourself into it, you
thought it was really going to be a good
idea,
and then at the as soon as it's over
you're like, "What was I thinking?"
What was I thinking?
Well,
you weren't.
Not very well anyway.
Um
so we we kind of try to hold that
ignorance there, too.
Because I don't want to see.
Cuz that means I can't do it if I see
too well.
That's another problem.
>> Because it's willful.
>> It's willful.
Yeah, sin is in the will. Sin is only in
the will. It's not in matter, it's not
in the emotions, it's not in the
intellect, it's only in the will.
>> Uh Frederick, I think there's a hand up
over there.
>> So, I have a question. So a little
earlier we were talking about um
pride and people being prideful, like
they don't think they can be forgiven.
And it just reminded me so
I'm just going to give a little context
to my question and then ask. So,
my question is so like what first what
is what if like a sin is like a super
super duper bad mortal sin and
>> Like bigger than killing God.
>> And the the person's like a Christian,
so and all they're
you know, the bond of confession, all
that. But, you know, like to take on the
penance I know a priest needs to take on
some penance for the penitent in
confession. Like that happens. But, um
the person's like trying to figure out,
okay, I've done my penance, but because
the gravity of that mortal sin, like
it it like like like like they think
they'll end up in purgatory. And then
say like I had a situation where I had a
conversation with friend, we had an
argument. And he's like, "No, it's pride
that you know, you don't think like you
could be forgiven." I was like, "It's
not that I don't think that I can be
forgiven. You've just assumed that
like like you don't know what I've done.
I'm not You're not my priest. I don't
confess to you things. And like I I I
think you think like he thinks, okay,
like scrupulosity or whatever. Like
you're being too scrupulous. You're too
hard on yourself. Fine. But, like if
someone had a bad mortal sin and like
what what would be the situation there?
>> Sure.
>> Um
>> Can I just jump in on that?
>> Yeah.
>> Yeah, so it's an excellent question.
It's a question that's born out of
experience.
Um
and from that perspective and from some
theological uh insight as well, I can
offer you a way of thinking. So, when we
go to confession
uh we
we're looking for
us to be reconciled
not only with God,
uh but with others,
and also with ourselves.
Because those are really the the three
relationships that have been offended.
Uh
the
the reconciling with God
happens in such an extraordinary way as
Father Cal so beautifully and eloquently
stated it uh coming from the cross of a
total oblation of the son
and is communicated through the words in
that sacrament uh through the form and
the matter that's being present.
Reconciling with others
you know, when you walk out of the
confessional and harm has been done with
others we all know that doesn't fix
right away.
Um
we do do penance and we may even do more
things
uh to try to
cooperate with God's grace to mend
uh to maybe glorify those wounds in some
way.
But the piece that we often forget
and I think it's
perhaps one of the most challenging
is the interior journey of contrition.
Because you yourself
are both the offender
and the offended.
You're on a journey of becoming
someone slightly different than the
person
that did the offense.
And that is an extremely difficult
process
to go through.
It's growth.
It's fraught with the perils of despair
and doubt and pain
and in a word
an agony of contrition.
And this is where
um
when one goes through this process
perseverance in faith
and trust in mercy become essential and
they're not mere uh platitudes.
Uh they're a way of surviving.
But I think there needs to be a
recognition
of the fact that you're becoming.
That there's a newness to you.
That can that will eventually grow to
the point that you can look back and
say,
"That isn't me anymore."
It is me, but the part
that wanted to do that and did do that
is no longer part of me.
The parts that were behind it have
changed.
And in this sense,
we can look back
when this transformation occurs
with a certain separateness.
And the contrition is no longer fresh
and burning and challenging.
And it becomes a glorification
of how God has changed me.
Um I I
like to reference this book by Father
Leo Trese
called The Faith Explained. It's
outstanding.
And it's section where it deals with the
final things.
Um
He calls it
the resurrection of the dead and life
everlasting.
He talks about how
we are created to give glory to God.
And that all people
will meet that end.
Both the damned and the blessed.
He said,
"The
the damned will give glory to God in
spite of themselves.
They will bear eternal witness to his
justice.
He said, "The blessed, however,
they will give
eternal glory to God by bearing witness
to his mercy.
And that they could look back on their
former selves
without this
sense of shame any longer because of the
newness of who they currently are.
And in this sense, the wounds of our
life, like Christ's,
they're not erased,
but they're glorified because they bear
eternal witness to his mercy.
But the journey of that becoming
is fraught with the perils of despair,
and the pain of contrition can often
feel too difficult to bear.
Um that's where you need to uh touch
base
uh with those who you're getting
spiritual guidance from, particularly
your priests and maybe confession, but
also spiritual friends, friends with
whom you can talk about the faith. You
don't have to have true confessions with
your friends, but you can talk about
these challenges in the way in which you
had just described. Those things are
also extremely important. Um and it's
not truly a battle of pride in that
sense. It's just really easy to say,
"Oh, that's pride. You're not accepting
forgiveness." No, it's truly the weight
of contrition
that is extremely difficult to shoulder.
Yeah.
>> Go.
>> I was just wondering
so like
should people be doing um like say
for
with me because I know now that the
priest, I didn't always know that the
priest was taking on
penance in confession for sins like the
penance he gives me is only partial.
Someone finally explained that.
Um but like for when I go for like a
mortal sin, should I be taking,
depending on like the gravity um of the
sin, should I be taking on, you know,
extra rosaries or some other form of
penance like prayer like not like okay.
>> So should is Should
should is a funny word here, right?
Because
you know, I could shoot in myself to
death about
every single I know it sounds funny,
doesn't it? Um
but on literally everything I do. I mean
I actually I run into this problem in
Lent.
Right? I kind of set up my parameters
and things I'm going to do, but then
then I sit there and I go to have a
drink
which is not violating my parameters for
Lent, but I think
should I just have water?
And then then it's time to eat
something. Well,
do I really should I just not eat?
Should I should I should I should I and
at this point it becomes this sort of
like endless shame game.
Uh
as though
>> Because you fail at it every time.
>> Well, that's true.
That's true. That's true. Oh, we'll talk
about Father Gober later.
I'll talk about Father Gober later.
Let's
But um
No, so
it's tricky. I do think I would I would
counsel
to look for sincerity first.
So if I were going to take on something
in addition to
what a priest has given to me in a
confession,
I would would not go with impulses,
but I would rather be if something had a
sincere resonance with me
to do something in addition,
I think that's where I would start to
discern
um
the the right thing to do. Because there
are million things you can do, right? I
mean there are million
beautiful devotions out there.
And I should I feel guilty that I don't
have them all?
I mean I couldn't go through a day if I
tried to accommodate all the devotions
that exist out there.
No, you you find the ones that resonate
in a way and they're made for you.
They're meant for you. Um they pick you
and you pick them.
It's the same thing with the cult of
saints. Should you feel guilty that
you're drawn toward you know, Saint
Philip or Saint Peter or Saint Paul? Or
No.
You know,
they're all there. But you resonate. In
a very similar way I think with some of
these additional penances that you think
of you're like penances are good. Um and
it's not just Lent, right? We know that
every Friday is a little Lent. Um we we
incorporate them into our spiritual
lives. But I would I would not go down a
path
of the cycle of thinking that I just
reflected that I can go down myself.
Like oh should I really be doing that?
Should I be you know, it's like it's a
cold morning. Should I really put the
heat warmer on? You know, like the my
butt warmer. Like it's Lent. Like I just
When does it stop? Right? Cuz I This to
me it becomes it just becomes neurosis,
right? And it's like this is not
All right, now I'm getting into true
confessions. I'll just leave it there.
So I want to turn it over to Father
Calvin so he can begin his true
confession.
>> I think that's the way of letting you
know today that is just perfect. I'll
leave it there. I think it was very
beautifully put. Um because we're not
talking about we're not talking about um
simple cause and effect relationships
that that that don't intersect. What I
mean by that is that like you did X and
therefore X rolls up. Hey, what if what
if what if she won, Johnny? She's won
these penances.
>> Right.
>> amount of time in in purgatory or
whatever else it is. It's not The things
are linked. It's it's a conversion of
the heart. So the penances have to fit
the crime.
Um as much as you're saying, but you got
to you got to go through the weight of
all that. Contrition etc. and say that
what I'm looking for what God's looking
for is is this thing to change. So what
helps this thing to change?
Period. Because you can be a you can be
a
>> Record shows he's pointing to his heart.
>> Yeah,
so you can could on the cross and look
at him and say, "Remember me when you're
coming in your kingdom." And it's over.
And it's over.
I mean, he didn't say, "Well, I'd like
to bring you in,
but it ain't going to be today."
>> Yeah.
>> And it probably ain't going to be for
thousands of years because
I know what you did.
And that's going to take some time.
Normally, it is like that for us. It
takes time. He can also heal you
completely in a nanosecond if you have
contrition. It's just perfect
contrition.
>> I mean, just note Just note for example
our doctrine on indulgences.
>> Yeah.
>> Right? What's You can have a plenary
indulgence, right? So, what is that
doing? That's accounting for all the
temporal punishment associated with the
the consequences of our sin, which is
really what you're talking about.
And okay,
what is it? The act itself
that's defined by the church.
You say a prayer for the Holy Father.
You uh
>> have no attachment to
>> But there's the I'm going to get there.
But is there any other one? Prayer for
the Holy Father, the act itself, and
then
and you go in confession, make a
confession. Then the
This is the one. This is the juggernaut.
No attachment to sin, mortal or venial.
What is that telling you?
The key to The key is exactly what
Father Calvin is saying. It's about your
attachment, your heart's attachment.
So, the penance is oriented toward
changing the heart
to becoming that new, that fresh
person that you're meant to be.
That's where it's oriented. All the
other things are so simple. A prayer for
the Pope, you know, the act itself,
which is usually a very simple act. You
can go through a holy door.
Uh going to confession, which we
regularly do.
>> It's because it's it's manifesting that
you're not earning this thing.
>> But you
>> You're doing something simple that which
is flooding you with your grace.
>> It's the change of your heart. That's
the the challenge.
>> So, we're going to have to wrap it up.
Uh really?
You're done.
>> Aw, God love her.
>> So, did you enjoy this setting, this
environment?
>> That was great.
>> Well, good.
And
>> Part of this is a reminder of one of the
reasons we're doing this is not just to
teach the faith. Well, obviously that's
fun. But, we're just trying to get
people to talk to each other.
To do the same thing. To go up on the
rooftop, as it were, and have real
conversations about real things, and not
about the price of gas, and
the war in Iran. We have to
talk about that, but it's like, talk
about eternal values. If you're not
having those conversations, you should.
Find someone with whom you can talk
about real things.
As we
can climb a lot higher than another
person than we can by ourselves.
>> And these are genuinely the
conversations we have. We are doing
nothing in a staged way. Uh,
this is We would be having these
conversations with or without you in the
room.
>> You're off of the collars now.
>> With That's true.
The appearance In fact, I think we had a
few where we were miked like that, but
um, the the video actually changes that
dynamic, but this is genuine, and and
this is one of the things we truly want
to model, which is to say these these
conversations are meant for everybody.
And you you can do your own reading,
your own education, you can find your
own things, and you know, you don't have
to have the privilege that we've been
afforded by all of you, the church, to
study the way that we've studied, so
we're very grateful for the have the
opportunity to reflect what we've been
able to study because of the support of
the church, and offer it back in this
context, but
you have been the beneficiaries first of
the divine gift of faith, second of all
the formation you've ever had in your
lives by way of the church or otherwise,
and now an extraordinary amount of
available content for you to be able to
digest and talk about with your friends.
>> Well, before we go, I am looking forward
to a new concert right after.
In this room, which is what time?
>> 2:00 p.m.
>> 2:00 p.m. What time is it now? Okay, so
you got you got a break. Walk around,
take a break, and our own Father Colby
Murray, who is um
in this house uh as the Bravo class
second year of seminary, his mother
Jennifer and one of our other
seminarians, uh Matthew C.
It should be a quartet, and they did not
invite me.
>> Aha.
>> I know that it is right over there, so
before you go, please tell Jennifer
>> you to do a solo.
>> that I should be in the quartet instead
of being left out of my own house.
>> And
So, my before you go is that I've heard,
and I I it could be a rumor, but I don't
think it is,
that uh there were a group of faithful
that were trying to make the seven
churches on Holy Thursday evening out in
the Winston-Salem area.
>> Yeah.
>> And they thought for sure St. Leo's
would be open.
>> He said we're at home.
>> They they arrived. It was before
midnight, and sure enough
>> 10:00.
>> it was closed.
>> At 10:00 he closed it up.
>> With all of those young priests and the
zeal of Father Go
>> He wanted it open. They wanted to keep
it open.
>> I bet they did.
>> Who closed the church down?
>> Father Go.
>> Why?
>> Cuz he wanted to go to bed.
>> He wanted to go to bed.
>> Our Lord is in the dungeon awaiting his
trial.
>> Mhm.
>> And he said, "No, I could not wait an
hour with you."
>> I think any anybody who's listening who
happens to be a parishioner at St. Leo's
in Winston-Salem, or live in that whole
live within that I don't know, 10-mi
radius, 20-mi radius, you need to
petition Father Gober next year to have
the church open at least till midnight.
Are we all on board with that? All
right, there we go.
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