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(Creepypasta) Forgive Me Father (by SmolBabil)

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The narrator recounts their journey from being a casual fan of cartoons like *Totally Spies* and *Code Lyoko* to discovering the French animated series *Ink: Invisible Network of Kids*. While initially viewing it as a copycat show, they grew to appreciate its grounded tone and strong voice cast. This interest led them to DeviantArt in 2014, where they found a dedicated community of fans creating anime-inspired artwork. Among these artists was a talented creator known online as "Hey Im Zero," who the narrator befriended through shared enthusiasm for the show's cut content and concept designs. Their friendship involved exchanging fan art, discussing ideas for future seasons, and connecting over their mutual love for the characters, particularly Zero, who had become a significant comfort character for the artist. The dynamic between the friends took a dark turn when "Hey Im Zero" suddenly stopped responding to messages, only to later post disturbing artwork titled "Forgive Me, Father." In this piece, the character Zero was depicted looking injured and terrified in a cornered room, with text implying she felt blamed for her father's actions. The artist explained via email that she had been enduring severe abuse from her alcoholic father, who frequently insulted her and threatened her safety. Fearing he would find out about her struggles if she spoke to the narrator, she pleaded for secrecy while posting vague updates like "Had a bad day." This silence and distress continued until she posted another harrowing image called "Look What You've Done," which showed Zero standing over a dead man with a bloody knife, suggesting she had killed her father in self-defense. Upon seeing this second disturbing image, the narrator immediately contacted the artist to express their concern and confusion about what had happened. The subsequent email revealed the full extent of the abuse, detailing how the father had physically assaulted the girl since she was ten years old, including forcing her hand onto a hot stove and throwing bottles at her. In a moment of desperation after being throttled, she grabbed a kitchen knife to save herself, an act that resulted in her father's death. She expressed deep shame but insisted it was necessary self-defense, asking the narrator for forgiveness before stating this might be their last communication. The emotional weight of reading about her trauma and the fear that she would disappear if he found out highlighted the terrifying reality of domestic abuse situations even among close friends. Following the artist's final message, the narrator investigated news reports from France regarding the case and discovered that the father, Bernard Ledger, was indeed a known abusive alcoholic with a history of arrests for noise complaints, DUIs, and other crimes. The court proceedings ruled the incident as self-defense, resulting in no prison time for Evette, who was instead placed in mandatory therapy and moved to a local housing unit. Although the narrator never heard from her again after that tragic event, they hoped she continued to pursue her passions away from the trauma. The story serves as a somber reminder of how domestic violence can escalate quickly and the difficult choices survivors are forced to make when trapped in an abusive environment, ultimately leading to a life-altering consequence for both the victim and the perpetrator.
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[music] >> When I was in my mid to late teens, I was often on DeviantArt. It was the main place I would go to look at cool art animations and games, mostly Sonic, Dragon Ball, Naruto, or even Totally Spies. Yeah, I'm a dude and I like watching Totally Spies. It's a good show, okay? But I eventually got really into this one French cartoon after a friend of mine who watched quite a lot of Code Lyoko, even got me into the fandom from it, suggested I should watch this show called Ink, Invisible Network of Kids. Now, from the looks of it, it seemed to be what some considered a Code Name Kids Next Door copycat, but I thought it was really sick. The show felt more down-to-earth and less wacky than KND and I honestly thought it was pretty cool nonetheless. Heck, a lot of the voice cast from Code Lyoko was in it, so I could understand why my friend suggested I watch it. Eventually, I got curious to see if there were any fans of the show on DeviantArt. I mean, the show had come out in 2009, so give or take, there would definitely be a fandom for it by 2014, no? Well, I struck gold. There were so many fans out there on the site, from fan artists to those asking search character name here accounts. It felt so satisfying to see that although it was a small fandom, it had dedication to it, especially with some of the more anime inspired fan art, [music] which led me to eventually find this account. You know the kind if you were on DeviantArt back in the day. The MS Paint bases that were clearly traced from an anime screenshot or the shading done by something like Fire Alpaca or Krita, which I always found to be cool. From what I could tell, this artist was definitely a huge fan of the series along with a few anime and comic book fandoms that they were also in. Now, this is the only screenshot I have of Hey Im Zero's page. Zero spelled as Z 3 R 0 or as she is actually known as Event since she did leave DeviantArt [music] a while back and her page wasn't entirely archived on the Wayback Machine. However, I did download basically all of her artwork and cosplay stuff back when she was still around. Honestly, I thought it was neat. She, for the most part, was quite talented with her artwork, both physical and digital, along with her work on cosplay, such as an Obito cosplay that she did around that time. She also, of course, had cosplayed as a character from Ink. This being Zero, who was clearly a comfort character of hers. Seriously, a good third or so of the arts Hey Im Zero did was of her. Then again, a good amount of art she did was just Ink fan art. Heck, even her username was a reference to her. I eventually commented on her deviation that was NinjaZ concept designs and how I thought it was really cool. It turns out it was related to some cut [music] content going to be in season 2 of Ink before the show got canceled, [music] where Zero basically would have left the team only to become a vigilante similar to Batman. Overall, the concept art was sick as hell and I had to show my support. That alone was what led to us being friends on there, often trading each other fan art, later sharing our emails so we could contact each other if needed in other ways, talking about our ideas for season 2, who our [music] favorite characters were, you know, average stuff that would happen in fandoms like this. Then one day, she wouldn't respond. I [music] just thought she must be busy today and I left her alone, but she still wouldn't respond by the next day or even the day after that. I didn't know why she was doing this until later that evening when I noticed that she had uploaded some new art. It was called "Forgive Me, Father". It was of Zero. So, I just thought it was some normal art until I noticed that she seemed to be cornered in some sort of room. She looked rather injured, [music] like she was bruised all over with a bloody nose. Heck, one of her arms looked scratched and damaged as if she had just gotten into a knife fight [music] or something. There was a sense of panic in her eyes. You could also faintly see the silhouette of a man going towards her, a broken glass bottle in his hand. There was also text next to her. It read as follows. "What did I do wrong to upset you? I tried to be good like you said, so why do you still yell at me? You act like it's my fault she left. You act like I'm a burden to your pathetic life. You act like Mr. Perfect the second the neighbors get worried hearing my pleas for help, but you're not. Why do you hurt me, your own daughter?" Everyone who noticed the art [music] immediately began commenting, asking Heyimzero if she was doing all right, clearly concerned for her well-being. She only respond with "Had a bad day" [music] or "I felt a bit tired" or even "Just felt like drawing this, you know." Eventually, I got an email from her. She mentioned how she wanted to tell me the real reason she did the artwork in the first place, >> [music] >> stating that she got into an argument with her dad, who she stated was a piece of and how she had been having a rough week due [music] to him, but pleaded with me not to tell anyone out of fear of him finding out. That alone freaked me out. Finding out a close friend of mine overseas was [music] dealing with possible abuse while I wasn't able to do anything about it was a terrifying thought for me. And yet just the next day, she was casually posting more fan art like it was just an average [music] day to her. Nothing dark or sad though, just some art. I thought things had gotten better for her and that maybe, just maybe, some divine intervention had helped her out. But that wasn't the case. A few weeks later, she posted another dark drawing. This one showed a man slumped on the floor, a beer bottle scattered across the room, his throat slashed out and stab wounds all over his torso. I had no clue who [music] this man was in the drawing, but then I noticed who was also in the drawing. Zero. The poor girl was standing there clutching a bloodied kitchen knife. Her hands, hoodie, and boots were splattered in the man's blood. She looked both shocked and terrified, tears welling up in her eyes. The image was called Look What You've Done. Now in ink, it was implied that Zero did [music] have a shitty home life and that her relationship with her father was not good, but I didn't expect someone to just casually come up with the idea that she accidentally killed presumably her dad. But that's when it hit [music] me. If the previous image of this nature represented Evee's struggles at home with her dad, then oh god. I had to email her immediately. Evee, please respond if you see this. >> [music] >> It's urgent. Did something happen again with your dad? Did he hurt you? What did you do? Evee, please answer me. I don't want this to [music] get worse for you. Please. Just tell me what happened. I thought I wouldn't get a response at first, but then the sound of the email notification struck, making me feel dreadful once. Mike, I'm sorry. This will probably be my last email to you because of the stupid I did. It's about my father. Well, I can't even consider him my father after all the [music] he did to me. He just wouldn't stop hurting me. He kept screaming insults and threats at me, acting like it's my fault that the divorce happened when it was all caused by him drinking [music] and beating mom and me. He literally forced my hand onto a stove while it was on just I asked him to help me with something when I was around 10 years old. 10 years old. And yet he still decided to harm me. He's a bastard with no remorse in his empty tar-stained heart. He got home earlier tonight. He was drunker than usual and started calling me insults, ones about me being a girl. He was always misogynistic though. Eventually, he lost his [music] temper and threw an empty bottle at me. I snapped and told him to leave me alone, [music] to stop treating me like a punching bag. He went ballistic and started beating me. I think I might have cracked a few ribs from him attacking me. I can't remember much though, except when I noticed the knife on the counter. He was throttling me. I thought I was going to die. I did what I had to do to save myself. I'm ashamed of what I did, but it was that or me going missing [music] due to that sick monster who conceived me. I'm sorry, Mike. Please forgive me. I called the emergency services, told them I acted out in self-defense and that my dad had been abusing me for a while. Because that was the truth. If this is the end, then thank you for being my [music] friend. Eget Ledger I haven't heard from Eget ever since then, but after scheming through some news reports from France during that time, I did find one about the case. It stated that due to further investigations at the Ledger residence, her father, Bernard Ledger, was an abusive alcoholic who had been under arrest many times in the past for multiple accounts of noise complaints, DUIs, and many more horrific crimes. Evette, however, had to move into a local housing unit and was given mandatory therapy for the events. The court ruled it as an act of self-defense and she was not given any time in prison, luckily. I hope wherever she is, she is still doing what she loves. >> [music] [music]