Big boy week in London.

this is different than what we typically do because it's live it's in front of a whole 3,000 group of people you know there's a lot of pressure everything has to go right perfectly timed perfectly right you can't Mis step not going to be on myed wondering why I was always scared [Music] I'm in another country and this time it's one that I'm actually from landed on Sunday couple of days to climatize shows tomorrow show sold out more than 3,000 people which is wild and I still can't really wrap my head around I don't know what I think about that I'd love to give you some piffy aphorism but I have no idea what think about it uh Mom and Dad are coming down ex- business partners coming across tons of podcasters from everywhere are coming through plus everyone else so I'm just trying to take everything one day at a time that's me burger with no fun in it thank you no fun Burger that's me significantly smaller portion sizes in America perfectly acceptable portion sizes but not for Americanized [Music] people do a muscle up you got it it's a thick bar I can do it all right it's like a great bar for it just a little thick send it come [Music] on yep yep no good effort slamed his chest good effort okay I'm trying to find this a gym I'm struggling to find us a gym come on let me get I'm going to grab a uh energy drink from right there what are you going to get C4 can I have a Frozen bombsicle please oh okay dude no new tonic for you huh dude staying in a fancy part of London trying to find somewhere that just lets peasants from abroad drop in and lift Things N all right sir we've got a we've got a three month membership uh 36 month membership no no [Music] hopefully we're not going to the right the yep you know what I'm [Music] saying last time when I was in Australia I snuck a kind of monster in training with James and he gave me stick and Zach just suggested that I might not want to get this on camera I'm like being comfortable in your sexuality I'm comfortable in my energy drink consumption I know when it's time to have a C4 and that's before training not going to have one of these before I go on stage my face gets itchy tonight but right now this is the [ __ ] bottom's up so what are we blasting delts shoulders buys and tries it's good there's only one workout on the day of a show yeah so when you do two or three shows back to back it's atrocious cuz you think hang on I've done shoulders bis and trcks three days in a row here do you want to tell everybody about what you did to the buffet last yesterday morning and this morning you've already done it of course tell everybody about what you did to the Buffet I am like the Reckoning to a breakfast buffet specifically in um the UK I've been known to house a few uh full English breakfasts in my day and when they see see me coming they get ready you know sure the buffet is expensive but I'll I make that thing worth it you know I'll get at least at the very minimum six eggs worth of scrambled eggs but today I order Ed fried eggs mhm only five uh so discrete number of eggs this time you knew how many you got yeah well I got five this time but then I reup on you get the sausage you get the baked beans uh dude I mean it's just all around and then like after that I'll do it's I I do a Savory round two two to three Savory rounds if I'm honest then a sweet round which is yogurt cuz I need more protein and then then I'll do the cereal and then I'll do the fruit on the way it's like a sort of a four Coast breakfast yes four absolutely four but it's not like we're teasing it we're like it's blunt force trauma right away yeah there's no appar te nope there's no star there no it's just dude it's crazy and again the Norwegian business lady was sitting right there having her like little toast with butter and like a piece of cheese on top yeah and I'm over here three four plates deep American guy in the room yeah dude come on you better watch out if you have an open buffet for breakfast you better watch out bro there it is beautiful wow look at that absolute culdesac gym entrance hi ho hi ho to Pure J we go this is the least welcoming Frontage 50% of it is a fire exit yeah [Music] bro are you listening to this can you hear what they're saying so because this is totally operated just by codes and there's no front desk they must have to put this announcement on which is if somebody's having medical problems please call the CCTV team it's like some virtual guy that's watching this gym if you think that there's a fire please do do the other thing it's like there's just nobody on site that's running this gym I'm you oh here we go London yes dude hell yeah [Laughter] [Music] Zach what is that the most hardcore [ __ ] you've ever seen in your life that's what that is somebody using [Music] it I like gu does not need that much weight just for context that's like what 180 lb row yeah what you doing dude hey come on already that good wow good [ __ ] [Music] and oh yeah oh get up thaty we give it a try yeah oh wow [Laughter] [ __ ] hell help him help him put a bucket together okay okay I don't know how to do it I'll only get in the way boy [ __ ] come on this is important to know I will have another full English breakfast you can [ __ ] count on that dude that's a promise bro that's if I was running for a politician your headline of your campaign I will have two no I will have a full English breakfast that's that is a guarantee to the American people or the English people sorry [Applause] fancy breakfast at the ivy Max it's a nice very strong British brand quite exclusionary bit Colonial uh very important it's the authentic British [Music] experience you look in here dude it's beautiful out that [ __ ] rainy nassy looks a lot like the Iranian flag here on the left wow literally my ritual is listening to you every single day oh my God I can't believe I've read into you randomly on the streets of blundered I've been here every day this is your second day in a row this is your second double breakf you've done a bang bang bang Bang Yeah it's a double full the double double double full yeah so two double Falls they'll remember me they're already going through Psychotherapy at the buffet place what are we going to do tomorrow how are we going to how are we going to handle this guy they feel like strategy they've got a game board like tactics from a sports team Enrique you need to you need to intercept before he comes up let's slow him down I'm not nervous it's like anytime I'm nervous it's like I just [ __ ] send it and even if I perform like [ __ ] I just keep you just keep going what else can you do I think it's typically accepted wisdom to not do something for the first time in front of the biggest audience you've ever played a lot of this show I've done before in bits and a lot of this show I'm doing for the first time there's a lots of people watching so we'll see how it goes going to go back to the hotel ready for later on I don't really know what to do I don't know if I need to chill out or if I need to stay amped so go back to the room and stare at the wall see what happens and um yeah run some more lines make sure that I feel prepped for this evening see you T night let's give it a little [ __ ] [Music] she oh this is beautiful I'm comt fantastic big beautiful I feel nice I'm feel I'm excited it's like more people than I've ever seen in my entire life looking at me but Halloween on the big Market in Newcastle probably about 3,000 people staring at me so isn't it funny though you upload wait there wa there wa there wa there one second really our job it's the same [ __ ] thing just marshalling people toward different things one pound EAB bombs philosophy quote this is different than what we typically do because it's live it's in front of a whole 3,000 group of people you know there's a lot of pressure everything has to go right perfectly timed perfectly right you can't miss step [Music] never to [Music] me about this hard living a easy surreal so surreal really surreal I'm trying to make it less surreal I'm trying to make it more this is happening right now this is happening right now and then when it ends what at that final final ending I'll that's it unreal so cool unreal sound sick up there absurd it sounds you sound unbelievable I said to Max I was like I remember the first song you played on a $50 karaoke setup in front of my ex-girlfriend and Sky drunk as he was sad emo [Music] rapping tat bad news that's all anybody's ever said about me yeah I like to cut loose and smoke too you might think I chose this way of living I would it chose me you can [Music] hear for me for the last 6 years it hasn't it hasn't changed I'm still sitting in my office editing videos the numbers on the screen go up and you know that's all well and good but it doesn't really like mean anything but then like coming to these shows I'm like oh this is like it's real now there's like real people here like as you say they've put pants on with pants on and they come to see you in person and it just like it it just makes it all feel real cuz like up until up until recently it's just felt like you know it's just the lads grafting it's same job man that's all you said we said it in the LA Vlog like it's the same thing that we've done for now nearly seven years the same thing but I suppose that's what consistency is it really is just doing something kind of well over and over and over and over and over and over again and not layers of layers of paint I was saying before I've been thinking more about the way that bands tour the fact that people in a band have the camaraderie of everybody else doing it along with them I mentioned this to you the other day you've got these other people who've got the same sleep deprivation as you the same pressure of performance as you yeah they play a different instrument but it's the same thing they know where you've been they were there with you they're in the bus they're not slept they're tired they stink they're whatever it's like this sense of sort of shared suffering that binds you together you told me about this from when you do your movies and you sort of leave the trenches with this odd sense of like patriotism to each other and uh yeah I've realized that just because I can do something on my own doesn't necessarily mean that I should especially now that we've got a little bit more luxury and we can bring along people who thankfully actually get on with the people that I work with so like oh no we need to bring the videographer with us but it's also someone that you get to hang with because I've done it enough times like [ __ ] hell dude modeling shoots back in the day get myself up at 5: in the morning and drive to Manchester for a 9:00 a.m. call time to go and you sitting in the car listening to a shy La buff podcast episode or whatever I'm listening to right endless endless years and years of doing that I had in the annual letter the first ever annual letter at the beginning of year 6 I had written I wonder if it's possible to be world class and have fun at the same time and now I just want to wonder if you can have fun uh like the world class thing is coming along for the ride we can't stop that so some more fun by a who whoa whoa this is uh I don't do this in public what do you think what's happening people how are you you're so punctual come here no you go come here what do you think I think it's huge I think I was going to swear there but I don't it's fine we swear I swear all the time I know you do and that hasn't come from me yes it has all right it has come from don't Deans there I'm I'm really excited uh that being said I was able to do America stuff in America and Australia stuff in Australia and as of yet haven't had anywhere to do British stuff so there's at least 10 or 15 minutes of material this evening that I've never said in front of an audience so I may fall flat on my [ __ ] face up that just make them make them promise to laugh now that's it yes so I need sympathy if it's not genuine laughs I need sympathy laugh from and if the first three rows aren't doing it I'll know that you didn't you actually don't care what's the saying that you need us to chip it I'll do the team America Signal which is uh that the team America Signal all right if anybody wants a new tonic feel free to just step up and grab yourself one there is more than enough this evening I would just like to know your thoughts on all of this well this is huge yeah is quite massive kind of unbelievable really obviously Chris is going through this journey of finding out who he is who is Chris to you he's my son and he'll always be my son yeah and um whether he likes it or not he'll never get away from that how do you fit it all in and then still have time for yourself and like friends family how do you like know what to say yes to say no to uh sacrifice the time for yourself and friends and family if you don't have a life then all you have loads of time to work um that's like only half joking as well um last couple of years I was talking about this five minutes ago last couple of years all I've done is just put my nose on the grindstone and just keep going um and it's been very successful in the only way that you can be judged which is outwardly but it's come at a personal price and um I'm really thinking now about trying to balance fun with the same sort of performance so the um the Chris Bumstead episode that I did uh he talked about how it's not just about winning it's about how you win and in that like I think what people one way to take that is be a gracious Victor set an example help to bring other people up but that's still outward facing right what I'm thinking about is it's not just about winning it's about the experience of having won so this evening is a good example I've been saying I kind of got to dry run tonight in Australia and a lot of the shows I was like they went amazingly but I was gripping I found myself being very tight and it's because I wanted it to go well and I was scared that it would go badly so I've made this link that if I fear that it's going to fail then it will go well so fearing that it will fail creates it going well I'm like right how about a radical idea that thinking it might go well might still result in it going well um so I'm going to test that this evening so again if my brand new material and the biggest show I've ever done and all the rest of if that falls flat on its face there's a million different reasons about why it might be but uh I don't think it'll be that so I'm very much like trying to find more time for me and life and to enjoy it because I'm going to look back on this at some point be like you rip this [ __ ] project off a Launchpad one inch at a time for like you for half a decade with two people and a Facebook messenger chat fine like you can have the hardcore come up thing there but after a while like have some fun enjoy it and you know there's something very British about that Puritan work ethic about sort of uh whipping yourself into submission and almost enjoying the pain this sort of belief that success has to come with a big side order of pain and it would have been better if it was more painful somehow and I've made this sort of Link incorrectly in my mind and I'm really trying to detox myself from that so but it's the difference between hard work and suffering I think another thing as well if you're nervous you almost don't want to feel feelings because you're like if I feel the feelings the nerves come along with them and if I like dampen everything down the nerves get dampened too but if you think about like the Overton window of acceptable speech I think about that but for emotions and I kind of get the sense that you don't get to do this you only get to do that and if you do this and you Tred to dampen down the bad stuff you end up crushing the good stuff as well cuz you just I'm not going to feel I'm not going to feel so yeah like if I if the price that I need to pay to have fun tonight is to be terrified before [ __ ] I'm going to pay it love it it's amazing how present and grounded you are even though like thousands of people are coming soon to here they will I promise like what is it I don't know I'm just trying to feel this I really want to feel this tonight really really do and it may result result in me crying on stage or breaking down or falling over my words but I really want to be here like I said before I'm the poster child for imposter syndrome like chronic chronic amount of lack of self-belief like really really ruthless and a I'm a good avatar for someone who didn't think that they were going to get anywhere and like was adamant everything was going to go wrong doubted the process ruined the enjoyment like every single trick in the book that you shouldn't do and still got to the place where he's going to be on stage in front of three and a half thousand people it's like if that's not a [ __ ] relatable story where it's like everyone talks about fake it until you make it but I'm pretty sure that you can make it until you believe it and that's kind of where I'm at at the moment anyway guys I'm going to love you I got to love you and leave you thank you oh yeah uh more productivity if anybody needs it all right mhm you get on good how's that oh easy work have You Met My Mother Alex you know I did just meet you second AG but I didn't realize that's who I was talking mother father [Music] [Laughter] [Music] ofun got a lot of different modalities going on at the moment I've got speech coaches pre-show concoction unpronouncable neut tropics and my energy drink and my M's raiky healing all occurring at the same time lock got to do vocal warm [Music] up h [Music] the train roll around [Music] the she died in the upstairs bedroom By the Light of the evening star she died in the upstairs bedroom By the Light of the evening star that's what I want Co that is what I want okay we don't have that point there we don't have long that's okay we're done now that's okay it's that point okay that sense of informative State poetic State Whimsical state that is where we are okay [Music] [Applause] [Music] from bottom of my heart what you hear today there's no [ __ ] there it really kind and like I K you want me to go before the music starts yeah time it well right after you end okay you good ladies and Gentlemen please welcome to the stage Chris [Applause] Williams but remember we only have to be lcky once I remember [Music] ladies and gentlemen I think [Applause] [Music] for thank G put your hands me thank thank you very much for this evening and make some [Applause] noise all right okay ladies and gentlemen we need to have [Applause] a do not shout one [Music] I'm many special people change how many lives and Liv s where we while we slowly walking down F to the with you I'll someday you will find me come the Shar the [Applause] [Music] fin [Music] sh a [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] that was the best I've ever [ __ ] let [ __ ] go oh my [Music] God oh my God some it just gets so it becomes so numb if if a video got 3,000 views didn't do very well did it there's 3,000 people here tonight and it is really starting to hit me pretty [ __ ] hard just what a difference we're making it's quite a for me to [Music] process 3 two one [ __ ] fantastic dude I said it before I'll go toe-to-toe with anyone for the most jacked audience on the internet I told you ages ago about a guy who um who I said I introduced the podcast he [ __ ] gave up his Sticks came to London I came to London Because of You Jesus [ __ ] Christ I feel respons thanks for entertaining my long drives to work 3 2 1 how you man look at this outfit [ __ ] aw man thanks very much you changed my life man thank you so much kept me alive a couple of times genuine been them one together yes please what an outfit I love it thank you honestly I was just want to say thank you for being you man because uh you won't have a lot of time but dude like yo literally your podcast Sav my life man like uh I I was entertain my own life at one point man and I watched one of the episodes on that driving point for me to go get some help and go therapy man so I just want to say thank you for being you man very glad that you're still here thank you man go perfect 3 2 1 lovely I came especially from Bulgaria for that show you came from Bulgaria yeah Sophia Bulgaria just for you oh s thank you I've been suffering from depression and a year ago I've been work for three months and your contents really helped me do so much better now thank you so much man [Music] thank you when did you L [ __ ] yourself next [ __ ] myself but you know you're a podcast with Louis how made me start doing salsa yeah yeah it did it did I just want to say like your podcast was such a big impact on my life like I've been listening since 2020 and like I was in a really shitty place and it has it just help thank you for being the friend that I've needed the last two years doing the lovely chat when you were saying it on stage they do the thing thing right just do the thing I posted that real on my story and this girl replied to that and uh she's my girlfriend now no [ __ ] my wing I think it's interesting timing because he just hit 3 million subscribers 6 years ago started in the basement but everybody is here that supported him back then and they're all here to see he sold out a show of 3,000 people like that's amazing 3 million subscribers 3,000 people it's so cool that was perfect that went that went so perfectly and uh there a lot of ways that it have gone wrong this year it didn't so strange because this year's been up and down a lot even though publicly the fastest growing most Revenue generating most attention grabbing year I've ever had uh privately it's been tough and a lot of the time I think I've tried to distance myself protect myself from feeling things too much but tonight I uh definitely felt alive so is to being [Music] alive bed no one I'll be buried in [Music] regret thinking about the things I never did while I'm taking my last [Music] no need to fear the end cuz I know I didn't just live when I di oh know I didn't just I was no I didn't just SL how was the person that you were proud of took chances didn't it down oh no need to fear the end cuz I know I didn't just said how was [Music] I I was [Music] the how why [Music]